(no subject)

[bomohoso]

so after all that happened, all that I did, all that we did,    Go my Ali explore the world, don't look back, you deserve this more than anything, nothing in the world could have ever stopped what is happening, It's human nature. I know our love is real, you really showed me what love is, what caring is, and what loss is, seperation. I can't really think of what I am going to do next, I have to pick up my heart first, look at it for awhile and place it somewhere fresh, Fresh, this whole expierence, everything that I created myself, my home, my life, my direction, I still am living my dream no matter what, I really am on my own I have no family to help. no relitive's remotley close, I have to start with nothing again, a negitive balance if you will.  This home I have created is all I have to go to ,  my comfortable space. it;s still all fresh im my mind, My expierences, My life, this new thing, Alone? maybe thats the word,  I dont know what that is yet, neither does Ali, cold bed, no hugs, no other view, no other bird, It really feels like a family , what we, WE have created at 2048 1/2 robinson street Hillcrest CA, Its all going away, but not the love, I'm not sure if Ali's, my baby's love is still there for me, the longing, the heartache? she hides it well, or maybe shes glad to be rid of me, I'm glad in a way, accidentally in love, wrong place wrong time, but it is LOVE, I did'nt really consider this the run of the mill relationship, it really was and still is special, nothing with ali is run of the mill anyway,  but goddamnit, my heart still spills nothing but love and ensured happiness for that bloned haired cutie pie, I besides like her family will care for her more than anybody ever will, i know, understand, and can deal with Alison, nobody knows her like me and ever will, I love making that girl smile, cry and laugh................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ i really dont want this to end.

you are the dream some people dream of.

Ray Bradbury.