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a story of my adventures last night. met up with dave, trav, and kaylene at coffee time after school, took the bus to main street and walked to the coffee shop. then we went on a big adventure to ferry lake, some park, an interesting bridge where we proceded to become gargoyles, and then all the way to the park near leslie valley. it twas quite the walk, and very enojyable. other than that...what else is new...
i had an odd dream last night. he was in it. and in it, he loved me. hm. i want to remember this dream. im going to write it down.
from what i remember...me and some other people...i have no idea who they are, but my brother was there. it was winter, and lots of snow. for some reason, we climbed the empire state building, but it looked more like a mountain. and there was a snow escalator on the side of it which we had to get down by, but it was really slippery and steep. so getting down was really scary, i almost slipped to my death. i wish i could, like, know that im only dreaming in life threatening situations like that so i would just take the chance and die and see what happens, cause its only a dream. ha. anywho...we got down successfully and had to go through this building that was like, full of alarms and laser beams and weird shit like that. so we made it through and got on this plane. the plane took us the wrong way, and we ended up in new york city. and when we got out, i was so amazed by the city that i wanted to take a look around and walk to the statue of liberty which i could see from where we got off the plane. i also remember there being a subway right off the plane too. so me and another girl...i think it was kaylene...started walking and i just remember being so insanely amazed by the city...it looked like a fairy tale. it was beautiful. and we got to this harbour where there were little jamaican huts and a dirty lake. and thats where i met up with...him. so me and...him...for some reason needed to swim through the dirty water to get to this other hut a little bit down the coast. and every time i almost sank, hed save me. we got to the other hut and got what we needed from some guy, as i was telling "him" about my whole empire state building (mountain) story. weirdness. and then all of a sudden, i was doing this dance with him...the same dance were doing in class...the crazy booty shaking latin dance, and i think we were in the dance room at huron...playin around and being all slutty:P it was humourous. and thats all i remember.
i saw "him" this morning, and i thought of the dream, and started to giggle. he was wearing the same shirt as in the dream:S weirdness.
i really...need to get wasted. i hope its warmish on saturday:)
and besides all this...im feeling happy. the weather is making me happy. every spring, oce it starts to get warmer, everyone seems to perk up, and be a little bit nicer:) i like it. i feel more confident in myself. and more secure. and very happy and fulfilled.
:)
however...
i seem to have this certain...attachment...to a little thing we like to call "lust". either that or, physical attraction. oh how it deceives me. i wonder...if i really am attracted to the person, or if its just physical, making me think otherwise. or both? or what? bah. hormones suck.
i finally feel like i can breathe. i feel...like the world has been taken off my shoulders, and just said "leah...take a rest. smile. love everyone around you. take a look at what youve got, what youve always wanted. think about how happy it makes you feel, and just focus on that. you deserve a break, and dont worry about him. he seems to be fine..."
i just realized...that sentence states that the world said that to me:S but not the people...the...world? goodness.
everything is clearer now that it has EVER been. never again will i do that. ever. i know now, that the power to stay true to yourself is a very, very valuable thing.
someday.
i had an odd dream last night. he was in it. and in it, he loved me. hm. i want to remember this dream. im going to write it down.
from what i remember...me and some other people...i have no idea who they are, but my brother was there. it was winter, and lots of snow. for some reason, we climbed the empire state building, but it looked more like a mountain. and there was a snow escalator on the side of it which we had to get down by, but it was really slippery and steep. so getting down was really scary, i almost slipped to my death. i wish i could, like, know that im only dreaming in life threatening situations like that so i would just take the chance and die and see what happens, cause its only a dream. ha. anywho...we got down successfully and had to go through this building that was like, full of alarms and laser beams and weird shit like that. so we made it through and got on this plane. the plane took us the wrong way, and we ended up in new york city. and when we got out, i was so amazed by the city that i wanted to take a look around and walk to the statue of liberty which i could see from where we got off the plane. i also remember there being a subway right off the plane too. so me and another girl...i think it was kaylene...started walking and i just remember being so insanely amazed by the city...it looked like a fairy tale. it was beautiful. and we got to this harbour where there were little jamaican huts and a dirty lake. and thats where i met up with...him. so me and...him...for some reason needed to swim through the dirty water to get to this other hut a little bit down the coast. and every time i almost sank, hed save me. we got to the other hut and got what we needed from some guy, as i was telling "him" about my whole empire state building (mountain) story. weirdness. and then all of a sudden, i was doing this dance with him...the same dance were doing in class...the crazy booty shaking latin dance, and i think we were in the dance room at huron...playin around and being all slutty:P it was humourous. and thats all i remember.
i saw "him" this morning, and i thought of the dream, and started to giggle. he was wearing the same shirt as in the dream:S weirdness.
i really...need to get wasted. i hope its warmish on saturday:)
and besides all this...im feeling happy. the weather is making me happy. every spring, oce it starts to get warmer, everyone seems to perk up, and be a little bit nicer:) i like it. i feel more confident in myself. and more secure. and very happy and fulfilled.
:)
however...
i seem to have this certain...attachment...to a little thing we like to call "lust". either that or, physical attraction. oh how it deceives me. i wonder...if i really am attracted to the person, or if its just physical, making me think otherwise. or both? or what? bah. hormones suck.
i finally feel like i can breathe. i feel...like the world has been taken off my shoulders, and just said "leah...take a rest. smile. love everyone around you. take a look at what youve got, what youve always wanted. think about how happy it makes you feel, and just focus on that. you deserve a break, and dont worry about him. he seems to be fine..."
i just realized...that sentence states that the world said that to me:S but not the people...the...world? goodness.
everything is clearer now that it has EVER been. never again will i do that. ever. i know now, that the power to stay true to yourself is a very, very valuable thing.
someday.