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i don't even know what to say. not much goes on with me lately.
umm...idk? i am getting my hair highlighted today. my mother does not know this, but i am betting bright red and blonde. it is going to be fucking awesome. and she won't like it. hahahaha. :) yeah maybe i'm a bit sadistic towards her lately.
yesterday i just, totally blew up at her. and everyone else. i don't know what happened but i was mean to EVERYONE yeseterday. very bitchy. not like me to be that way to my mother. but like in that poem, the whole eggshells things, yeah that can be applied to yesterday. i'm fucking going to see my boyfriend today whether mother "lets" me, or not.
i realized something, i have NO real friends at this school. NONE. with the exception of my sister. hardly anyone talks to me anymore, but hey i was gone for 2 weeks, can't blame 'em. i'm so sick of the preppy bitches talking about me behind me back. i'm not as afraid of confrontation anymore. you got something to say to me or about me, say it to my face BITCH.
i wish i went to benton, once again. bonnie is there and that would be so awesome getting t be around my BEST friend more. jonathan is another awesome factor to that equation, that would be triple as nice. ;) plus, it would be good to kind of start fresh, ya know. god, i'd give anything to go there. i'd cut off a lib or two. haha.
jonathan asked me if i though everything was going okay between us sunday night, and i wonder why. i mean. i asked why and he was like, just wondering. but i wish i could get inside his head and figure it out; does he not think things are okay? i mean believe me, things are great with me and him. i love nobody but him, he's wonderful. but does he feel that way about me? oh no, trust me, i do not question him loving me. it's whether or not he thinks things are going...badly. are they, though? i guess i'll see.......
umm...idk? i am getting my hair highlighted today. my mother does not know this, but i am betting bright red and blonde. it is going to be fucking awesome. and she won't like it. hahahaha. :) yeah maybe i'm a bit sadistic towards her lately.
yesterday i just, totally blew up at her. and everyone else. i don't know what happened but i was mean to EVERYONE yeseterday. very bitchy. not like me to be that way to my mother. but like in that poem, the whole eggshells things, yeah that can be applied to yesterday. i'm fucking going to see my boyfriend today whether mother "lets" me, or not.
i realized something, i have NO real friends at this school. NONE. with the exception of my sister. hardly anyone talks to me anymore, but hey i was gone for 2 weeks, can't blame 'em. i'm so sick of the preppy bitches talking about me behind me back. i'm not as afraid of confrontation anymore. you got something to say to me or about me, say it to my face BITCH.
i wish i went to benton, once again. bonnie is there and that would be so awesome getting t be around my BEST friend more. jonathan is another awesome factor to that equation, that would be triple as nice. ;) plus, it would be good to kind of start fresh, ya know. god, i'd give anything to go there. i'd cut off a lib or two. haha.
jonathan asked me if i though everything was going okay between us sunday night, and i wonder why. i mean. i asked why and he was like, just wondering. but i wish i could get inside his head and figure it out; does he not think things are okay? i mean believe me, things are great with me and him. i love nobody but him, he's wonderful. but does he feel that way about me? oh no, trust me, i do not question him loving me. it's whether or not he thinks things are going...badly. are they, though? i guess i'll see.......