frustrated
so basically i dont know what to think about this modeling thing im tryin out. i HAVE to get professional photos or else im not going to get any work. but basically for the bare minimum its goin to cost me $400. and alot of castings are way out of state....say california, new york. i dont have money to travel just whenever. i seriously dont really think this is worth it. NOTHING goes on in michigan. and i hate sitting here with some cropped photos on a website when theres a ton of other girls with professional photos. im so frustrated i dont even know what to do lol. grrrrrrr. im thinking about quitting but im also holding on because theres always the "what-if" part of me that thinks this could bring in some extra cash for me. buttt in order to get that cash i need castings and such and to get THOSE i need the $400-800 fashion photos. but i have about a million other things goin on too so saving the money is kind of takin a back seat. i have to start school. i have 2 weddings for sure this year, one is with an on again off again couple so who knows if theyll really get married for their 3rd engagement. one of the weddings is in florida. so itll be a mini vacation wich will be nice. plus i have my lawsuit going, im tryin to get the ball rolling on that. and my car need a lot of mechanical work. but ive always wanted to model. i was so excited about this to begin with. i thought there would be more diversity in the castings, more castings closer to michigan. just MORE in general. ehhh...i dont know....i really really dont know.
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