Feeling a bit guilty
So it's been some time since I have updated my journal. I must admit I have been strangely addicted to myspace. But my LJ has a very special spot in my heart. You can't get friends like these on myspace. I have missed reading some of the entries. The thing is that my myspace has my immediate friends that I see on a fairly regular basis, where as on here I read it for a broader perspective. I mean akaliquidsnake he is truly one of a kind. I am glad to see that he has been posting frequently so I can read up on what he has been doing. I must say I did enjoy the alien babies bit. That was great!
I have been working way too much. I am going to Minneapolis for two weeks so it will be probably at least two weeks before I am on here again and that is being optimistic. I have every intention of updating on here more frequently. There are somethings I can post on here that I can't post on myspace because of comfort levels.
There has been some pretty stupid drama as of late that has been completely unnecessary and I am involved whether I like it or not, it was not my choice. It is so dumb I can't even get the reason in my mind as to why I should even post what actually happened. It is dumb I don't even want to acknowledge it and what really sucks is that it has really changed my perspective on a person that I really did not care to have changed.
People need to understand that their actions have an affect on others. Whether they mean for it to or not. I don't understand how people don't get that. Are we all really that selfish to not understand that? This person can't seem to figure any of it out or they just refuse to and they are waiting for the whole thing to blow over and I don't know if it will or not.
I am not going to make any assumptions. I have tried to fix things and smooth things over time and time again, but until I feel that it is necessary for me to make an adjustment I guess I am going to have to be the selfish one for a while. I typically do not take that stance I am a pretty confrontational person. I generally do not like conflict but if there is resolution to be had I will be the one to find it and I prefer to have resolution for the good of everyone but I am tired of it.
And when people want my opinion to end up just turning around and blow smoke up my ass than I guess I am just going to take my time and deal with it my way. I am tired of dumb games and dumb drama and it's over as of now. It is now my way and if people love me like they say they do then they will make a bigger attempt to get over themselves and address the issue at hand. Until that time comes they can continue as they wish. It is me time now, not them time.
I don't mean to sound like a bitch but I have done a lot of things for a lot of people and have extended myself in many ways to this particular individual and some things have come to light that I don't think I like too much. Basically this person needs to grow a pair and deal with the fact that they may have to have an unpleasant conversation with me. I wouldn't say that I am giving them the silent treatment exactly. I will and have spoken with this person, but right now I don't have much to say and I am very disappointed.
We have all been disappointed, when you are disappointed to you have much to say. Not an angry disappointed just a kind of "Well, that says everything right there now doesn't it?" kind of disappointed. It's a shame, it really is. I don't know what else to say other than I am sorry to see things have gone this direction, I wouldn't have expected it.
C'est la vie. Anywho other than that life seems to be going pretty well, don't have much for complaints LOL yeah right. Hope anyone that I haven't spoken to that has read this is doing well. Let me know how you are.
I have been working way too much. I am going to Minneapolis for two weeks so it will be probably at least two weeks before I am on here again and that is being optimistic. I have every intention of updating on here more frequently. There are somethings I can post on here that I can't post on myspace because of comfort levels.
There has been some pretty stupid drama as of late that has been completely unnecessary and I am involved whether I like it or not, it was not my choice. It is so dumb I can't even get the reason in my mind as to why I should even post what actually happened. It is dumb I don't even want to acknowledge it and what really sucks is that it has really changed my perspective on a person that I really did not care to have changed.
People need to understand that their actions have an affect on others. Whether they mean for it to or not. I don't understand how people don't get that. Are we all really that selfish to not understand that? This person can't seem to figure any of it out or they just refuse to and they are waiting for the whole thing to blow over and I don't know if it will or not.
I am not going to make any assumptions. I have tried to fix things and smooth things over time and time again, but until I feel that it is necessary for me to make an adjustment I guess I am going to have to be the selfish one for a while. I typically do not take that stance I am a pretty confrontational person. I generally do not like conflict but if there is resolution to be had I will be the one to find it and I prefer to have resolution for the good of everyone but I am tired of it.
And when people want my opinion to end up just turning around and blow smoke up my ass than I guess I am just going to take my time and deal with it my way. I am tired of dumb games and dumb drama and it's over as of now. It is now my way and if people love me like they say they do then they will make a bigger attempt to get over themselves and address the issue at hand. Until that time comes they can continue as they wish. It is me time now, not them time.
I don't mean to sound like a bitch but I have done a lot of things for a lot of people and have extended myself in many ways to this particular individual and some things have come to light that I don't think I like too much. Basically this person needs to grow a pair and deal with the fact that they may have to have an unpleasant conversation with me. I wouldn't say that I am giving them the silent treatment exactly. I will and have spoken with this person, but right now I don't have much to say and I am very disappointed.
We have all been disappointed, when you are disappointed to you have much to say. Not an angry disappointed just a kind of "Well, that says everything right there now doesn't it?" kind of disappointed. It's a shame, it really is. I don't know what else to say other than I am sorry to see things have gone this direction, I wouldn't have expected it.
C'est la vie. Anywho other than that life seems to be going pretty well, don't have much for complaints LOL yeah right. Hope anyone that I haven't spoken to that has read this is doing well. Let me know how you are.