Its not fair
I've gone 2 months being faithful to a man that's waiting for me on the other side of the world. But then I meet a guy that I'm so attracted to... it's just not even fair how much I want him. I've been doing really well and not making any moves. Tonight we had drinks and he walked me home and turning and walking away was so damn difficult. He's sweet, smart, gorgeous... your typical crush. Ugh- it's a good thing he's such a nice guy because if he were more aggressive and I hadnt told him I had a bf we would be in each others arms now. But dammit, I've waited this long, right? I barely even like my boyfriend back home anymore because it's been so long since we've had the intimate moments that couples share. But I'll be leaving Wellington in 3 days. I just have to hold on for 3 days and then I can return to John maybe less enamored, but still pure so our relationship can have a fighting chance. Because if I give into my crush, I might as well break up with John. But by gum, I won't let that happen!!!
...hopefully.
...hopefully.