i can tell that we are gonna be friends...
EDIT: to the last entry.
i miss the titanic and trampolines and stars.
i miss the sun and the moon shining at the same time, brilliantly.
i miss being a sneak.
i miss not caring what people are thinking because i care so much about what someone else is thinking.
i miss the best advice in the world, filled with laughter at the predicaments i get myself into.
i miss those predicaments.
i miss those akward moments when everyone was reunited.
i miss having people attempt to 'save' me.
i miss that proud, proud feeling.
i miss clarity, or at least what i think is clarity, and not even knowing what clarity means.
i miss things mattering so much, but not mattering at all.
i miss visiting Jesus and having Him explain things to me, reassuring me, giving me peace in the torment.
i miss that tingle, tingle, tingle.
i miss soulfest being perfect, and those crazy assumptions that i wanted to come true.
i miss complete security and wishful thinking.
i miss the way things were when i thought things would always and never be the same.
i miss being nervous about stupid things.
i miss the loop, and the made up loop, and driving around even when the loop is not involved.
i miss chucking munchikins and other objects at strangers.
i miss the state house steps and black and milds, and the lawn and dreaming about our futures.
i miss that park that i never knew existed, and those high kids in the background.
i miss uncontrollable driving that was really always under control.
i miss the bridge over the highway, and india point, and making faces and movies and crashing bottles.
i miss questions that have their answers cut off, and sentences that are broken apart.
i miss being annoying at the movies, and the kids.
i miss my couch and falling asleep.
i miss parking my car in the back so mom and dad will feel safe.
i miss feeling safe and (at least partially) in control.
i miss the times when missing these things would be rational.
ahhhhhhhhhhh, the summer.
so, i'm just thinking about summer a lot lately. i'm happy, truly, but i miss true happiness. hahaha.
the ever contradictory,
/z :):)
i miss the titanic and trampolines and stars.
i miss the sun and the moon shining at the same time, brilliantly.
i miss being a sneak.
i miss not caring what people are thinking because i care so much about what someone else is thinking.
i miss the best advice in the world, filled with laughter at the predicaments i get myself into.
i miss those predicaments.
i miss those akward moments when everyone was reunited.
i miss having people attempt to 'save' me.
i miss that proud, proud feeling.
i miss clarity, or at least what i think is clarity, and not even knowing what clarity means.
i miss things mattering so much, but not mattering at all.
i miss visiting Jesus and having Him explain things to me, reassuring me, giving me peace in the torment.
i miss that tingle, tingle, tingle.
i miss soulfest being perfect, and those crazy assumptions that i wanted to come true.
i miss complete security and wishful thinking.
i miss the way things were when i thought things would always and never be the same.
i miss being nervous about stupid things.
i miss the loop, and the made up loop, and driving around even when the loop is not involved.
i miss chucking munchikins and other objects at strangers.
i miss the state house steps and black and milds, and the lawn and dreaming about our futures.
i miss that park that i never knew existed, and those high kids in the background.
i miss uncontrollable driving that was really always under control.
i miss the bridge over the highway, and india point, and making faces and movies and crashing bottles.
i miss questions that have their answers cut off, and sentences that are broken apart.
i miss being annoying at the movies, and the kids.
i miss my couch and falling asleep.
i miss parking my car in the back so mom and dad will feel safe.
i miss feeling safe and (at least partially) in control.
i miss the times when missing these things would be rational.
ahhhhhhhhhhh, the summer.
so, i'm just thinking about summer a lot lately. i'm happy, truly, but i miss true happiness. hahaha.
the ever contradictory,
/z :):)