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While speeding down the narrow back roads off of River Road on my way home from School tonight, i realized my life is pretty much exactly like speeding down narrow back roads at night. I do the most effective thing to get me to where I'm going, as quickly as possible; and my gas gauge doesn't work. I never know how much more i can go, and i always watch the risks i take fly by like trees passing by my windows. I'm always pretty relaxed about everything, probably from all the weed i smoke.. whenever i get the chance. I skip more college than i have high school, yet I'm getting straight A's, i barely managed high school. Somethings gotta give. I have the easiest job i hear of, yet i never seem to please everyone there. Somethings gonna go wrong. My money goes to food, gas, and acid. Always, i have just enough for my cafeteria food, 4 fills at cumby's a week, and 6 hits for a trip on my day off. Those things are like trees I'm speeding by. I could fuck up and hit one and my life would change, but I'm too in control to do something like that. As it appears in my mind. I always make the good out of everything, optimism is great, unless you find good in all the bad things you do, then who is to say anything is wrong when i cant even tell. My life is too good and too simple right now. I barely notice how much it sucks. I constantly make it harder for me to enjoy life more. I should slow down and make it possible for me to enjoy next year too, when i get there. I need to stop being lonely so i wont have to write these things, but thats another case that i make harder for myself. I spend so much time bettering myself at the things i love that i hardly show myself to the things i wish to love.
Put simply, my life is good, but i probably deserve a rude awakening, and a cute girl.
Put simply, my life is good, but i probably deserve a rude awakening, and a cute girl.