For background info please read my last post.
http://bomb-chemist.livejournal.com/10424.html Well i fucked up again, just when i think im getting close to a meaningfull relationship, I do somthing and it all falls apart. I know this one was my fault. I must not be ment to have a life in which i can be happy with someone else. So I have thought long and hard about it an have decited to give up on the idea that I will ever be happy.