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I have never ever had a more miserable weekend than this one. More than half of it was spent crying, the other half being a total bitch because I was still upset but could not cry.
So yesterday was Nicks birthday party, I was going to be nice and give everything a chance but almost as soon as I got there everything went downhill. Everything Nick had told me all weekend long turned out to be lie after lie which only made me more and more upset. He couldnt tell me straight up what was going on, everything that I found out came from someone else which made things worse for him because he cant tell me the truth with all this and just upset me once...instead it was many times throughout the weekend. So I have barely talked to him and seen him all weekend, and am pretty sure I wont see or hear much out of him today. So yeah this weekend has totally sucked.
I am not looking forward to school tomorrow (even though I want this weekend to be over) because I missed quite a bit on thursday because of that gay ass field trip. The only thing that I have to look forward to about this week is payday...and even that Im afraid to look forward to because last time I did, I didnt get paid!?!?!? I guess I will go do homework or something because I dont want to be around all this window workin shit today...too much noise. No wait, I have nowhere to go because my brother, step-brother, and brother's friend are all at that end of the house and making a shitload of noise...so I have nowhere to go and nothing to do, no one to talk to and yeah...maybe I will go die.
So yesterday was Nicks birthday party, I was going to be nice and give everything a chance but almost as soon as I got there everything went downhill. Everything Nick had told me all weekend long turned out to be lie after lie which only made me more and more upset. He couldnt tell me straight up what was going on, everything that I found out came from someone else which made things worse for him because he cant tell me the truth with all this and just upset me once...instead it was many times throughout the weekend. So I have barely talked to him and seen him all weekend, and am pretty sure I wont see or hear much out of him today. So yeah this weekend has totally sucked.
I am not looking forward to school tomorrow (even though I want this weekend to be over) because I missed quite a bit on thursday because of that gay ass field trip. The only thing that I have to look forward to about this week is payday...and even that Im afraid to look forward to because last time I did, I didnt get paid!?!?!? I guess I will go do homework or something because I dont want to be around all this window workin shit today...too much noise. No wait, I have nowhere to go because my brother, step-brother, and brother's friend are all at that end of the house and making a shitload of noise...so I have nowhere to go and nothing to do, no one to talk to and yeah...maybe I will go die.