it's been a while
So...yeah, I haven't posted in a really long time. But, let's see what has happened since then... I got a job at Ham's. I have to go for orientation on Wednesday. I sent off my UK Honors Program application. I finished my creative writing story. I titled it "Once Upon a Time in Calculus." Mrs. Beal really liked it. She wants me to expand it, which would be really good, cuz then I could do all I wanted to with it. I wasn't entirely satisfied with the way it ended. And I think I could do a lot more with it. But, it was pretty good.
And I still don't have a prom date, but I'm thinking about asking Jerdin. I think that would be the greatest thing ever. It would be so much fun. I love that kid sooo much. He always makes me laugh, whether he's wearing pink hats that say #1 Grandma or pulling up daisies for me. lol. There would be no pressure. I really think I should ask him. He could come down for the weekend. I'm sure someone at church will let him stay with them. They'll probably fight over him. lol...
Lately I've been thinking a lot about the future. It's really strange to think that in ten years I'll be married with children--hopefully. Wow, progeny Jessica=weird. And my children will never know how crazy I was, who I had to put up with in school (zabu, p-dub), my friends--anything! And they probably won't care. It's like it never happened. I'll be starting a new life, one where I'm the only one that remembers the old one. My future husband won't know anything about Rowestar, Doc, Mrs. Beal, Davis, Cr8n, Wilkins... My kids won't care about how "foxy" Nathan was, how spaztic Maggie was, how wonderful and commitment-phobic Ryan was, how potentially frightening BS was, how "excellent" Carol was... All these things that are a big deal to me now won't really be that important to me in the future when I'm worrying about how to pay off my SUV payment and student loans or when I'm treating a patient... It's scary knowing that I'll be an adult totally different than how I am now. And the thing is, I like myself right now. I'm pretty interesting, I think. I just don't want to forget all this. I don't want it to be as if it never happened. I know I'll make new friends, my life will be great, my husband wonderful, and my kids as mischievious as I was. It's just, these years are important, too. I'm just feeling really conflicted.
Soo...that's all I got. Comment me or something. Please. I like comments.
And I still don't have a prom date, but I'm thinking about asking Jerdin. I think that would be the greatest thing ever. It would be so much fun. I love that kid sooo much. He always makes me laugh, whether he's wearing pink hats that say #1 Grandma or pulling up daisies for me. lol. There would be no pressure. I really think I should ask him. He could come down for the weekend. I'm sure someone at church will let him stay with them. They'll probably fight over him. lol...
Lately I've been thinking a lot about the future. It's really strange to think that in ten years I'll be married with children--hopefully. Wow, progeny Jessica=weird. And my children will never know how crazy I was, who I had to put up with in school (zabu, p-dub), my friends--anything! And they probably won't care. It's like it never happened. I'll be starting a new life, one where I'm the only one that remembers the old one. My future husband won't know anything about Rowestar, Doc, Mrs. Beal, Davis, Cr8n, Wilkins... My kids won't care about how "foxy" Nathan was, how spaztic Maggie was, how wonderful and commitment-phobic Ryan was, how potentially frightening BS was, how "excellent" Carol was... All these things that are a big deal to me now won't really be that important to me in the future when I'm worrying about how to pay off my SUV payment and student loans or when I'm treating a patient... It's scary knowing that I'll be an adult totally different than how I am now. And the thing is, I like myself right now. I'm pretty interesting, I think. I just don't want to forget all this. I don't want it to be as if it never happened. I know I'll make new friends, my life will be great, my husband wonderful, and my kids as mischievious as I was. It's just, these years are important, too. I'm just feeling really conflicted.
Soo...that's all I got. Comment me or something. Please. I like comments.