Just wanna complain....

[bollywoodgal]

Man I feel like complaining and I don't have no one to complain to so I shall complain to myself and all the other pplz that read this....it pisses me off that Nawaz is so damn critical towards me gosh. Well it doesn't piss me off as much as it bothers me...I wish he would go back to being the person that supported me and told me I could do things....on top of all the other shit our relationship has to go through right now he doesn't make things better...let alone make me feel better when he tells me I can't do things....I mean damn....I'm really trying to figure out what I want to do in life so I don't end up going to college and having no clue what I want out of it....if I at least go there with an idea of what I want I would be x10 happier because I won't have to worry about that....so last night I decided to ask him if he thought I would make a good pediatrician because for the most part he is the only person who can be honest with me and I can trust what he says....and the fact that he said no didn't bother me that much....so then me being curious as I am decide to ask him what would be good at then if he doesn't think I would be good at that...and he tells me nothing! And then I said that's not nice cuz I really thought he was joking but then he said dats the truth....so blah....that really bothered me last night and now I'm pissed about it...god...I feels really good for ur bf to tell you that he doesn't think that you can be good at anything in life. I seriously wish he would stop being so hard on me...even if that is what he really thinks he doesn't have to be so blunt about it...I guess it just hurts that's why I'm so upset about it. I wish all this crap would be over and our relationship could go back to being "normal". I'm tired of not seeing him and us not talking or anything and you know what...it's making our relationship suffer more then anything else because we aren't as close as we use to be....I miss that closeness with him. I wish he would just care again...cause now it just seems like he doesn't give a damn anymore about anything concerning us....I hope that's not the truth though...I'm tired of telling him how I feel about our "situation" that I've just stopped because I just waste my time telling him...

Enough talking about that though because it will just make me sad....lol for some reason today I can't stop thinking about that night where Michael was drunk and ran into that car...lmao....It made me feel so much better on top of what happen yesterday....Michael is so crazy....he said he thought he was stepping into a hole...lol...he didn't even drink that much and he ran straight into the car...oh man I can't even tell you....Me, Ashley, and Annabelle were on the sidewalk rolling around...I'm not even kidding we were laughing so hard and we were all drinking at the same time and our drinks just went everywhere...cause he just turns around and gives us this look like "wtf did i just walk into"...

So I want school to start back soon cause this summer sucks ass....I want to get this yr over with so I can graduate and get the hell outtah that school already....and I want next summer to come so we can go sporttttt in Brampton....weeee....da wedding we all been waiting for....its been 4 years too long! And I haven't been there in the longest....I haven't seen those pplz in foreva...I really need to go chill with dem...you kno when we get together its maddnezz already...I miss all of them so much....ok well I talked enough for one entry...dats all for now....