Exhaustion
I am tired
and hungry.
I'm tired of waking up alone
after falling asleep beside you
even if it was just a dream
I'm tired of not knowing
I'm tired of not seeing
Im tired of knowing you
and feeling attached.
I wish i could say that
i want you to go. I wish
I could not care.
THen maybe i wouldnt be so tired
maybe i wouldnt be so exhausted
I'm tired of putting myself out there
I'm tired of being continuously disappointed.
Mostly im tired of nto telling you
that you've disappointed me
--again.
I'm tired of trying to show you
that you are better than this.
I know you are...you should too.
Greatness stems from a knowledge of fear and pain
--something you and i know a little bit about.
Im too tired to yell
Im too tired to hear you
I'm too tired to feel
I am drained
I am an empty ladle
I am a cold pillow
a lone tear
a broken mirror
a smeared remnant of what i once was
or have never been.