Every time you think it's over...It never truly is...
It seems I just keep attracting the melodramatic BS I hate so much. Go me. I suck. Nah - mostly, I'm minorly irked and somewhat amused (Guess waht guys - I'm IMPORTANT! I'm SPECIAL! I can singlehandedly destroy reputations! Well, or something.). Think you guys all know about the whole marion thing... We were finally back to where could at least tolerate my presence with civility, vs being miserably mean, and I thought, seriously, that she had gotten over life. No such luck - must have just been her control-freak self coming out again. And be warned - I'm tired and I probably swore a couple times.
So I had a woman come from Edmonton to try Chance today. An endurance rider who wants a backup endurance horse, flat/jumping horse, and something for her husband to trail ride on occasion.
So I arranged for the arena to be booked at 2pm, which was one hour after Marions jump club was supposed to end. I arranged to have the horses hauled in (Brought Poly along to ride).
Wednesday, I find out that Marion has a lot of people and so is going until 2, and then again from 3-4. I said sure, whatever, and told Debbie to let Marion know that if she didn't want to take the jumps down, she was welcome to leave them up, they wouldn't bother us. Thought that was being nice. I didn't need to, but figured that since she was civil to me at the horse show, things must be done and over and she must be over it all.... so thought I'd be nice.
Turns out Lisa couldn't haul them - no trailer. So debbie agreed to haul the critters in for me. However, she had to ride in Jump Club at noon, so she picked them up earlier, and then dropped the horses off at 11 before heading home to grab her kids & horses to be back to ride. I stayed at the arena with the horses (no way in HELL was I leaving the horses alone there with Marion, whether things are "done" or not) and sat around working on my computer on some video stuff. Marion ignored me, although hung around near me chatting with people a few times. At one point she says something about how the arena is supposed to be booked at 2pm but she isn't sure if that's happening or not (bullshit, she already knew from Joanne, who does the bookings, that it was I who rented it, and my two horses were right there, as was I. I realize now that she was trying to goad me, but I never said a word at the time and never thought of it that way at the time either). I continue to work, occasionally getting up to scoop up MORE poop - I swear that horse stores ALL of his poop until I have him tied up somewhere, and then he just lets loose... I've never seen a horse lose so much in the space of 2 hours. yeesh - and whatnot ...
And then Georgia asks if I have my english saddle. seems she forgot to put stirrup leathers and stirrups on hers...before leaving home. So I went to my car and dug my saddle out - Georgia is a wonderful person and I don't mind helping her out in the least. Go back to my corner with my computer. Marion is hauling more jumps out. Out of deference to the fact that it was the right thing to do, I offered to haul a few jumps out for her. She says no, she's fine. Works for me, I sat back down and got back to work on my computer.
Debbie shows up around noon. I pick out music for the video I was working on - as I finish messing with the music, Marion asks if I'm done with it (it was NOT loud, for what it's worth, and certainly not spooking the horses)...I was so that was no big deal... her being snarky, I guess. Even had I not been i would have cut it there if requested, of course.
So continue on, Georgia untacks and I go hang out and chat with her. We talk about her upcomming trip with roping horses to Arizona, Public Lands & Crown Land (I applied for a job in that division in High prairie yesterday), how much I LOVE her 5yo WB gelding, and just general stuff - jobs, work, holidays, and whatnot. Marion calls out and asks Georgia where the new forks were. Georgia says they're behind the wall, and she'll get the poop. So she goes out to pick poop, comes back, goes out again for a new pile.... and as she's walking out the second time, Marion says to her "And Georgia, for future reference I don't want Lindsay here while I'm teaching."
WTF? Georgia had NOTHING to do with why I was there and she knew that - actually, georgia came back and said to me "well that was a chickenshit thing to do, If she really felt the need to say so, she could have at least directed it at you." No kidding - I don't appreciate that they have to be put on the spot because of me. Yeesh.
So I kind of decided to shrug it off, but started to worry about whether or not she would come blow things with the woman trying Chance. So when she got there I warned her before we even went into the arena about Marion, just said that we had a past, not a good one, and she may say something miserable about Chance, but that I do have contacts who will refute anything she says...ie: lay claim to the fact that she's lying about my horse. So all was good ...
And we're working around Chance and she's chatting with people, and then she goes BACK into the arena portion, walks along the wall to where we are with Chance, and says "Lindsay, I don't want you in my space again. You can fix things, or not, but I don't want you in my space again." In front of the potential buyer for horse, of course. Lovely. Nevermind that if ever I was closer than 100 feet to her, that was her doing, not mine. Pfft. I said "Fair Enough" and never stopped what I was doing, launched back into my discussion with the potential buyer. For what it's worth, she said this from BEHIND me and I never turned to face her either - let her stew on that.
Later found out she told Debbie that I just there for more arsenal/ammunition to talk about and bash her training behind her back. WTF? Despite what I don't agree as far as her training techniques go,I don't discuss it or bash her training. Never have, never will. Probably, she's managed to lose me that friendship. We'll see.
I'm starting to think she's literally created an alternate reality for herself and she truly believes it to be true. Seriously derranged, or something.
So I was quite bothered for a while, especially about what she said to debbie, but have found that now, at midnight, I'm really rather amused. I must be awfully important to have that much of an effect on her business, her students, her clients, and whatnot. I must be an awfully influencial person in the horse community and very important in her life for her to be worrying about me and so irked by my presence.
So hey - I'm IMPORTANT!! hahaha. Thing is, her importance to me is...not so much. She can go play in her alternate reality and I can just stay happily in mine. And no, I won't go hang out while she's teaching again. But I'm not going out of my way to avoid her either. Pfft, take that. My inner bitch came out about 2 minutes ago. I'm sure i'tll retreat to the inner recesses of my mind shortly, though, and I'll be back to my usual self.
I even kept my mouth shut and did NOT spit nails when she basically insulted Genie & co. Genie broke Kuzko, Dana's little WBX gelding, and Dana rides in a saddle that throws her leg way forward and does not allow her to use it on the horse normally. She winds up riding with the back of her calves on the horse, if anything. At Kathy's for the week she noted that Dana kept her leg way off, but then the friday we all realized that she was just using it differently, and concluded that the saddle was the issue. So today she's riding in jump club and Marion latches on to how her leg is braced and off the horse instantly - and yes, it was. But she says "Is that how they told you to ride him, with your leg totally off? I know they're western riders out there, so maybe that's what they told you, and now we have to fix it." Yeah, right, Genie rides horses who are tough, some of whom are practically broncs, and she sticks on em by keeping her leg way off the horse. Don't think so. I kept my mouth shut and only spit invisible nails, though. Partly because I do NOT need to be starting crap, but mostly because I remember Genie saying one time that we are NOT to defend them. And in truth, for sure, their work speaks for itself anyway.
For the things that bother me there, and the issues I've had this summer...... it was sure tough to keep my mouth shut and not defend them. But whatever, marion's the idiot.
As for that - I am seriously considering the Stony Plain idea. As in looking for jobs. As in... I want run away, take lessons with Kathy - KATHY! - and Poly and I can improve and improve, and I'll be away from that little snark fest. (Ok, and my inner bitch will send many progress reports to some friends around here, and will try and convince a couple of them to "discuss" it in her hearing.... ok ok ok, I'll go get salt to de-ice the high-road now. Promise.) Pushin' Forty, I will/would miss. For all the problems this year...well.. i do care about them and the place. It is not the right place for Poly and I to get serious about dressage, but still...It was the right place for a lot of other things.
Plus, I have to admit while being introspective that I caused some of the issues there because, quite simply, something Changed in april or may of 2006, and I started to get this nagging urge to run away, far away, and do something different/start over/try something new. And that urge to run away stuck with, and in my attempts to tamp it down I accidentally changed myself into something I didn't quite like - there was depression involved, but that's good now,... and I just.. couldn't deal with the meaning behind that driving need. Every now and then I made it go away, but it always came back with a vengeance.
So Eventually I planned my week off. One whole week to run AWAY! Figured that would get it out of my system.
Nope. Now I want to move to Stony Plain.
Although yesterday I wanted to move to Chicago.
And the day before, I wanted to move to Stony Plain.
And the day before that, it was New Jersey
Before that, Florida (Then I decided that was too expensive for board)
Before that, Stony Plain
Maybe Scotland
Or Arizona.
Or anywhere where there is NOT 3.5 feet of freaking SNOW on the ground!!!
Or just Stony Plain. Then I can come home to visit. Easier to visit from Stony Plain than New Jersey, or Scotland, for that matter.
I think Stony Plain is the plan, though. Riding with Kathy - I would love it. She's just the right mix of positive and corrections, and on top of that, she's willing to deal with my over-analyzing while pointing it out so I can try to get over it. Yeah - that suits. Who cares if she's an eventer maybe Poly and I will try Xcountry someday. And she can certainly teach dressage :)
The good news is that the lady who came to try Chance did like him, although she is going to talk it over with her husband and let me know. unfortunately, though he slept the 2.5 hours he stood tied in the arena with marion teaching, Marions presence (or the ghost thereof) did affect him and he was a bit worried and suspicious. I guess we'll see if she buys him or not. I want him to go to the right home, so if she doesn't think he's right for her, then that's fine by me.
I like her, though, and think she'll bea good home for him. So on that side of things, I would like to see him go to her.
Anyhow, I'm tired. Not that I'll be able to sleep, or anything, but I should at least sign off of THIS before you have to deal with more ramblings.
So I had a woman come from Edmonton to try Chance today. An endurance rider who wants a backup endurance horse, flat/jumping horse, and something for her husband to trail ride on occasion.
So I arranged for the arena to be booked at 2pm, which was one hour after Marions jump club was supposed to end. I arranged to have the horses hauled in (Brought Poly along to ride).
Wednesday, I find out that Marion has a lot of people and so is going until 2, and then again from 3-4. I said sure, whatever, and told Debbie to let Marion know that if she didn't want to take the jumps down, she was welcome to leave them up, they wouldn't bother us. Thought that was being nice. I didn't need to, but figured that since she was civil to me at the horse show, things must be done and over and she must be over it all.... so thought I'd be nice.
Turns out Lisa couldn't haul them - no trailer. So debbie agreed to haul the critters in for me. However, she had to ride in Jump Club at noon, so she picked them up earlier, and then dropped the horses off at 11 before heading home to grab her kids & horses to be back to ride. I stayed at the arena with the horses (no way in HELL was I leaving the horses alone there with Marion, whether things are "done" or not) and sat around working on my computer on some video stuff. Marion ignored me, although hung around near me chatting with people a few times. At one point she says something about how the arena is supposed to be booked at 2pm but she isn't sure if that's happening or not (bullshit, she already knew from Joanne, who does the bookings, that it was I who rented it, and my two horses were right there, as was I. I realize now that she was trying to goad me, but I never said a word at the time and never thought of it that way at the time either). I continue to work, occasionally getting up to scoop up MORE poop - I swear that horse stores ALL of his poop until I have him tied up somewhere, and then he just lets loose... I've never seen a horse lose so much in the space of 2 hours. yeesh - and whatnot ...
And then Georgia asks if I have my english saddle. seems she forgot to put stirrup leathers and stirrups on hers...before leaving home. So I went to my car and dug my saddle out - Georgia is a wonderful person and I don't mind helping her out in the least. Go back to my corner with my computer. Marion is hauling more jumps out. Out of deference to the fact that it was the right thing to do, I offered to haul a few jumps out for her. She says no, she's fine. Works for me, I sat back down and got back to work on my computer.
Debbie shows up around noon. I pick out music for the video I was working on - as I finish messing with the music, Marion asks if I'm done with it (it was NOT loud, for what it's worth, and certainly not spooking the horses)...I was so that was no big deal... her being snarky, I guess. Even had I not been i would have cut it there if requested, of course.
So continue on, Georgia untacks and I go hang out and chat with her. We talk about her upcomming trip with roping horses to Arizona, Public Lands & Crown Land (I applied for a job in that division in High prairie yesterday), how much I LOVE her 5yo WB gelding, and just general stuff - jobs, work, holidays, and whatnot. Marion calls out and asks Georgia where the new forks were. Georgia says they're behind the wall, and she'll get the poop. So she goes out to pick poop, comes back, goes out again for a new pile.... and as she's walking out the second time, Marion says to her "And Georgia, for future reference I don't want Lindsay here while I'm teaching."
WTF? Georgia had NOTHING to do with why I was there and she knew that - actually, georgia came back and said to me "well that was a chickenshit thing to do, If she really felt the need to say so, she could have at least directed it at you." No kidding - I don't appreciate that they have to be put on the spot because of me. Yeesh.
So I kind of decided to shrug it off, but started to worry about whether or not she would come blow things with the woman trying Chance. So when she got there I warned her before we even went into the arena about Marion, just said that we had a past, not a good one, and she may say something miserable about Chance, but that I do have contacts who will refute anything she says...ie: lay claim to the fact that she's lying about my horse. So all was good ...
And we're working around Chance and she's chatting with people, and then she goes BACK into the arena portion, walks along the wall to where we are with Chance, and says "Lindsay, I don't want you in my space again. You can fix things, or not, but I don't want you in my space again." In front of the potential buyer for horse, of course. Lovely. Nevermind that if ever I was closer than 100 feet to her, that was her doing, not mine. Pfft. I said "Fair Enough" and never stopped what I was doing, launched back into my discussion with the potential buyer. For what it's worth, she said this from BEHIND me and I never turned to face her either - let her stew on that.
Later found out she told Debbie that I just there for more arsenal/ammunition to talk about and bash her training behind her back. WTF? Despite what I don't agree as far as her training techniques go,I don't discuss it or bash her training. Never have, never will. Probably, she's managed to lose me that friendship. We'll see.
I'm starting to think she's literally created an alternate reality for herself and she truly believes it to be true. Seriously derranged, or something.
So I was quite bothered for a while, especially about what she said to debbie, but have found that now, at midnight, I'm really rather amused. I must be awfully important to have that much of an effect on her business, her students, her clients, and whatnot. I must be an awfully influencial person in the horse community and very important in her life for her to be worrying about me and so irked by my presence.
So hey - I'm IMPORTANT!! hahaha. Thing is, her importance to me is...not so much. She can go play in her alternate reality and I can just stay happily in mine. And no, I won't go hang out while she's teaching again. But I'm not going out of my way to avoid her either. Pfft, take that. My inner bitch came out about 2 minutes ago. I'm sure i'tll retreat to the inner recesses of my mind shortly, though, and I'll be back to my usual self.
I even kept my mouth shut and did NOT spit nails when she basically insulted Genie & co. Genie broke Kuzko, Dana's little WBX gelding, and Dana rides in a saddle that throws her leg way forward and does not allow her to use it on the horse normally. She winds up riding with the back of her calves on the horse, if anything. At Kathy's for the week she noted that Dana kept her leg way off, but then the friday we all realized that she was just using it differently, and concluded that the saddle was the issue. So today she's riding in jump club and Marion latches on to how her leg is braced and off the horse instantly - and yes, it was. But she says "Is that how they told you to ride him, with your leg totally off? I know they're western riders out there, so maybe that's what they told you, and now we have to fix it." Yeah, right, Genie rides horses who are tough, some of whom are practically broncs, and she sticks on em by keeping her leg way off the horse. Don't think so. I kept my mouth shut and only spit invisible nails, though. Partly because I do NOT need to be starting crap, but mostly because I remember Genie saying one time that we are NOT to defend them. And in truth, for sure, their work speaks for itself anyway.
For the things that bother me there, and the issues I've had this summer...... it was sure tough to keep my mouth shut and not defend them. But whatever, marion's the idiot.
As for that - I am seriously considering the Stony Plain idea. As in looking for jobs. As in... I want run away, take lessons with Kathy - KATHY! - and Poly and I can improve and improve, and I'll be away from that little snark fest. (Ok, and my inner bitch will send many progress reports to some friends around here, and will try and convince a couple of them to "discuss" it in her hearing.... ok ok ok, I'll go get salt to de-ice the high-road now. Promise.) Pushin' Forty, I will/would miss. For all the problems this year...well.. i do care about them and the place. It is not the right place for Poly and I to get serious about dressage, but still...It was the right place for a lot of other things.
Plus, I have to admit while being introspective that I caused some of the issues there because, quite simply, something Changed in april or may of 2006, and I started to get this nagging urge to run away, far away, and do something different/start over/try something new. And that urge to run away stuck with, and in my attempts to tamp it down I accidentally changed myself into something I didn't quite like - there was depression involved, but that's good now,... and I just.. couldn't deal with the meaning behind that driving need. Every now and then I made it go away, but it always came back with a vengeance.
So Eventually I planned my week off. One whole week to run AWAY! Figured that would get it out of my system.
Nope. Now I want to move to Stony Plain.
Although yesterday I wanted to move to Chicago.
And the day before, I wanted to move to Stony Plain.
And the day before that, it was New Jersey
Before that, Florida (Then I decided that was too expensive for board)
Before that, Stony Plain
Maybe Scotland
Or Arizona.
Or anywhere where there is NOT 3.5 feet of freaking SNOW on the ground!!!
Or just Stony Plain. Then I can come home to visit. Easier to visit from Stony Plain than New Jersey, or Scotland, for that matter.
I think Stony Plain is the plan, though. Riding with Kathy - I would love it. She's just the right mix of positive and corrections, and on top of that, she's willing to deal with my over-analyzing while pointing it out so I can try to get over it. Yeah - that suits. Who cares if she's an eventer maybe Poly and I will try Xcountry someday. And she can certainly teach dressage :)
The good news is that the lady who came to try Chance did like him, although she is going to talk it over with her husband and let me know. unfortunately, though he slept the 2.5 hours he stood tied in the arena with marion teaching, Marions presence (or the ghost thereof) did affect him and he was a bit worried and suspicious. I guess we'll see if she buys him or not. I want him to go to the right home, so if she doesn't think he's right for her, then that's fine by me.
I like her, though, and think she'll bea good home for him. So on that side of things, I would like to see him go to her.
Anyhow, I'm tired. Not that I'll be able to sleep, or anything, but I should at least sign off of THIS before you have to deal with more ramblings.