When just thinking about them makes you happy. When you can't stop thinking about them and you want to be with them forever and never ever lose them. When you'd do anything to make them happy.
Regardless of origin, everyone has feelings. Even you. It's possible to surpress them but it's far more unnatural.
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Ha, don't worry about it too much, alright? I- I mean, well, it's perfectly normal for you to have emotions, especially ones like this. Just because you haven't had them before doesn't mean you won't... first time for everything, right?
I'm not that kind of scientist, but I don't think genetic modification is quite capable of that. There are genes that can have an effect on emotions, but not genes that actually control whether you have them or not. To remove your emotions, they'd have to perform brain surgery, which would likely leave you entirely broken and useless. Not to mention it would have to be done later in life. They can teach you to close emotions off, but not remove them entirely, not without actual brain surgery or trauma to the part of the brain itself that causes emotions. And you can't just close one off.
If you were engineered to be unable to love, then you'd also be unable to feel anything else at all.
You're better for it now... I mean- I- Surviving only on anger and hatred is a horrible existence. It means you have nothing. S-so it's... good that you can feel other things now, isn't it?
I had a clear purpose to guide me. Knowing what I know now of the future and these strange emotions are muddying the waters.
Though these feelings are pleasant at times, I cannot think of any way that this won't end in heartache for Hal. If I tell him that I may reciprocate his feelings, it will only compound the damage in the end.
Everything disappears in the end. Either you lose it, you give it away or it's taken from you. That's the nature of this and every other world.
It's better to have a short time of joy, knowing it'll someday end and that your life was enriched by it, than to refuse to experience it out of fear it'll hurt worse when it ends.
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I see. You've given me much to consider.
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I wasn't supposed to have these kinds of emotions at all.
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Ha, don't worry about it too much, alright? I- I mean, well, it's perfectly normal for you to have emotions, especially ones like this. Just because you haven't had them before doesn't mean you won't... first time for everything, right?
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[Just like how they engineered him to have faulty plumbing.]
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If you were engineered to be unable to love, then you'd also be unable to feel anything else at all.
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I used to only feel anger and hatred. They were the fires that sustained me.
Things are much more complicated now.
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You're better for it now... I mean- I- Surviving only on anger and hatred is a horrible existence. It means you have nothing. S-so it's... good that you can feel other things now, isn't it?
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Though these feelings are pleasant at times, I cannot think of any way that this won't end in heartache for Hal. If I tell him that I may reciprocate his feelings, it will only compound the damage in the end.
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It's better to have a short time of joy, knowing it'll someday end and that your life was enriched by it, than to refuse to experience it out of fear it'll hurt worse when it ends.
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You'll get the hang of it eventually.
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