it's strange how things change...
I really want to know if I should just give up and actually try to get over it. Because part of me hasn't tried to let anything go at all. Part of me thinks that if I hold on you will too. Sometimes I feel like part of you kind of wants me to hold on tight for the both of us. It's probably just something I'm telling myself to feel better about everything. I don't want to give myself false hope, but I think that is just what I'm doing. I want to know if it's really all worth it, if I'm going to get anything out of it in the end or if I'm going to end up getting more "heartbroken" from holding on longer. The longer you wait the harder it is. Maybe we waited too long as it is. All I know is that I wish I had some answers, even if they are hard to accept, even if they mean, forgetting about everything for good. I know I'm telling myself that what I don't want to happen won't, that everything will work out how I want it to, but it's probably just "that"; something I'm telling myself. Something with no value of truth what so ever. In all truth I miss the way you look at me, the affection in your voice, and your laugh, the one you had when you were laughing at me. ...i hate to see that all fading. I wish I could say that I know you do too. I wish...--*sigh*
"We lie to ourselves before we go to sleep
in desperate hopes that in the morning it all
will be true."- Desperate House Wives