I wish
I WISH I WAS STILL IN NEW YORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yesterday was pretty much the worst day ever. I cried more yesterday than I have in my entire life. I did NOT want to leave New York. 5 days is no compensation for the 1 1/2 years we should have been together. Rachael's face as she left for school, knowing that it was the last time she was going to see me before I left, is still engraved in my mind. I miss the cold, I miss the snow, I miss Rachael now more than ever. She was more beautiful and more amazing than I could have possibly expected. It was perfection, and I left it all behind. I was screaming at myself for ever getting on that plane, but at 3600 feet, there wasn't much I could do. Tomorrow marks our 1 week anniversary. I won't even be with her for the first WEEK we're together. I miss her so much. It's not fair that I have to come back from where I am the happiest I've ever been into a dirt-covered, pee-stained, parentless home.