fun and crazy night

[boiwfangs]

i had a great time last night with my boy, dill. it's been so long since we chilled alone. we had one of the best conversations over coffee and a muffin ever. lol. chaos was a cool experience. it offers different things that apex doesn't and vice versa. i have developed a new crush on this hot king.i surprised myself by only having one drink which i didn't finish. it was apple rum and something else, i'm think cranberry juice. well my night out was fun but my night in was really weird.

i had a dream that i was lying on the ground bleeding. i was in pain so i know i wasn't just bleeding for no reason. i don't know why i was bleeding or where the bleeding was coming from. all i know is i was lying in a pool of my own blood. people were crying around me but i don't know who they were. weirdness.

anyways, i'm looking forward to tonight, tomorrow night, and definitely saturday night. the only thing is that i wish i wasn't behaving the way i am to a certain person. i always said that i wasn't this kinda person but she is scaring me a bit and i'm fighting what is telling me to run away as fast as i possibly can. that is the last thing i want to become mainly because its a sad way to live and i really do like her. felicia is suppose to keep me from being an ass. love you felicia, missed you last night. hehehe.

"I regret saying those things cuz now I see that I took what I hated and made it a part of me"