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These are some things that are currently pending in my life:
-friendships/relationships with a few people which I have a lot of anxiety about
-a couple friendships/relationships which I feel really good/relaxed about but still need to pay time & attention to
-two typed lab reports due tomorrow
-a fuckton of online chemistry homework
-what might possibly be termed mild depression
-a "success plan" due tomorrow
-studying for finals
Life motifs:
-joined women. The deep connection of being identical. Never feeling alone. We are all 99% the same, anyways.
-strong women - the most determined, beautiful, powerful, devoted people I have ever known have all been women.
-Black is the most beautiful color. Crisp. Organized. I have always had this huge aesthetic thing for professionalism. I luvvvv black slacks on ladies. Probably Scully is deeply ingrained on my childhood consciousness somewhere.
-The profound sadness of the american dream. Little white picket-fenced houses surrounded by fog. Ikea. Consumerism. Materialism. The myth of perfection. The wretchedness of it all on the deepest level. Oh, it makes me feel so sick of longing to be someone else... One of these days I'm just gonna give up, I can feel it.
I found my old photobucket with old art and stuff on it though, from before my computer crashed. ("daesgesage") It's still horrifying to go through, but I imagine that in a few years it'll be fun.
Here's the best of it:
holy cow, memory hole.
Next term I'm taking a womens' studies class, really looking forward to that.
-friendships/relationships with a few people which I have a lot of anxiety about
-a couple friendships/relationships which I feel really good/relaxed about but still need to pay time & attention to
-two typed lab reports due tomorrow
-a fuckton of online chemistry homework
-what might possibly be termed mild depression
-a "success plan" due tomorrow
-studying for finals
Life motifs:
-joined women. The deep connection of being identical. Never feeling alone. We are all 99% the same, anyways.
-strong women - the most determined, beautiful, powerful, devoted people I have ever known have all been women.
-Black is the most beautiful color. Crisp. Organized. I have always had this huge aesthetic thing for professionalism. I luvvvv black slacks on ladies. Probably Scully is deeply ingrained on my childhood consciousness somewhere.
-The profound sadness of the american dream. Little white picket-fenced houses surrounded by fog. Ikea. Consumerism. Materialism. The myth of perfection. The wretchedness of it all on the deepest level. Oh, it makes me feel so sick of longing to be someone else... One of these days I'm just gonna give up, I can feel it.
I found my old photobucket with old art and stuff on it though, from before my computer crashed. ("daesgesage") It's still horrifying to go through, but I imagine that in a few years it'll be fun.
Here's the best of it:
holy cow, memory hole.
Next term I'm taking a womens' studies class, really looking forward to that.