As cliche as it is: I hate that i love you -insert angsty little shit storm here-
So, yeah, I know i should know better then to bitch and moan on the internet, BUT I WILL ANYWAYS. Mostly because i just need to get my feelings out. And JESUS RAPTOR CHRIST hormones are a bitch.
Btw, p-please don't read me.
So, long bitch and moan rant short: There is a girl i like, she's older then me, but we get/got along rather well and i honestly like her more romantically then 80% of the human beings i interact with daily. She's a sweetheart, really, BUT she can be easily manipulated at times. That's caused her to clam up, i think, and with people being...generally bitchy to her all year, i knew she had some issues but... SHE'S also the one who admitted to liking me, and i risked alot, emotionally and socially (in my family, atleast) for her. And what do i get when i wait three fucking months for her to have some space? A 'I don't date anymore...' I mean, seriously. I've managed to bottle up the RAEG and hurt, but due to friends being generally....happy and celebrating their relationships (another friend's long-distance girlfriend just sent her flowers) along with some shitty ass dreams, it was kindof the last nail in the coffin, metaphorically. ._.
Anyways, FORGIVE ME FOR THE BITCHING AND MOANING. T-this really isn't meant to be read, just seen and shunned away. >>;;;
Btw, p-please don't read me.
So, long bitch and moan rant short: There is a girl i like, she's older then me, but we get/got along rather well and i honestly like her more romantically then 80% of the human beings i interact with daily. She's a sweetheart, really, BUT she can be easily manipulated at times. That's caused her to clam up, i think, and with people being...generally bitchy to her all year, i knew she had some issues but... SHE'S also the one who admitted to liking me, and i risked alot, emotionally and socially (in my family, atleast) for her. And what do i get when i wait three fucking months for her to have some space? A 'I don't date anymore...' I mean, seriously. I've managed to bottle up the RAEG and hurt, but due to friends being generally....happy and celebrating their relationships (another friend's long-distance girlfriend just sent her flowers) along with some shitty ass dreams, it was kindof the last nail in the coffin, metaphorically. ._.
Anyways, FORGIVE ME FOR THE BITCHING AND MOANING. T-this really isn't meant to be read, just seen and shunned away. >>;;;