May 01, 2003 04:36
so yea i called it off tonight with me and tom... as ive been talking about on here for a while... wether i let it be viewed or not... i just cant stand the weirdness any more...
things just arent the same between us any more.
he has such different views on thiings then i do, and it causes eithor us to argue,... or me to get pist off alot.
we btoh expect different things,,, and it wouldnt be right for eithor one of us to ask the other to change so i guess the best thing for us would just to be split up... and thats exactly what happened.
i feel whicked bad about it... and i didnt want it to happen... i just wish he would change... but i cant make him...
i dont feel it from him any more... we arent the same.. and things between us arent the same
honestly i feel as though he is fakeing it.
honestly.
i think he just pretending to go out with me in order to have a place to live.
its honestly how i feel and theres nothing that he did to proove me different
at all
i tried talking to him about this alot. and everytime that we would talk about shit ...t hings would only get better for hours at a time then shit would go bad again
so i guess its over between me and him.
i just dunno whats gunna go down now with the whole living situation
i have no clue whats gunna happen with that.
i honestly dont wanna see him right now.
i think im gunna run away to cape for a few days... dunno .... thats all.. i just dunno.
im right now at kyles house... chilling with him. i needed to get out of the house after that... i wanted it to happen for a lill while now but i was hopeing that things between us would get better.... but they didnt.
and i wasnt about to put effort ina relationship that i felt as though wasnt there... or as i sed fake.
ima hit the road now.. gunna sit here chilling for a lill bit longer and then maybe go back home and change. and then get going to go and chill with people on cape.... i have a interview with dominos .... then im deff heading to cape... i have to go to breuggers.. then yea... ima get going now... talk to people laters...
buh byes
steve