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life...is pretty crazy at the moment. applying to colleges and writing all these essays made me realize how soon i'll be away from home. it's so scary thinking about it. i hate the thought of leaving everything that's comfortable. leaving the people i grew to love as we grew up. and what is it that God wants for my life? is going to a "good" college the way to go? i don't know. i mean, i will be happy if i know that my parents are happy, but i don't want to block off God's will for me either. so it's a struggle. but i know God's in control. and you know what? that's what gives me peace because i know that no matter what happens, it's because God allowed it to. so if i don't get into the colleges that i applied to, God wanted it that way. and even though it seems hopeless at times, i know that nothing phases God.