Wrists and biting deer.
I'm not sure if I mentioned this, but if I didn't get an A on my last brit. lit. paper, I was going to commit my life to hard drugs. Fortunately, I got a 100%. Yes! it was worth an all-nighter and a pitcher of flat shirley temple. I feel like child-molestor-decoster finally realizes my BRILLIANCE. Too bad he smells and looks the way I imagine sin's brother/rapist looks like in "Paradise Lost."
I saw emily this weekend for about an hour... but no ayesha :( boo, radley. Also, no hannah or grant. Actually, it was a failure of a weekend.
Since I cannot do ANYTHING practical, i am going to take a welding class next semester. Emily thinks it's a REALLY good idea, so suck it.
The only two people whose opinions I trust concerning theatre (Emily and Chloe) told me that beauty and the beast was rroooouggh. everyone else said it was amazing. I didn't see it, but how could everyone else be so base? Hmm.. I am not sure who is on my friends list, so cheers to everyone who was in B&TB.
I've been thinking about primary objectives that i can create and experiment with a lot, lately. Hard to explain. Everyone complains that he/she cannot accomplish things. I think that this is because of self-created obstacles. For example, when a person says that he or she "cannot get a boyfriend" this is simply not true.
I have been thinking a lot about separating my emotional self from motivation and attempting different objectives. I will give examples:
Primary objective:
1. For one month, make as many close, adult male friends as possible.
This objective, however, is abstract and hard to gauge. BUT DEVILISHLY interesting to pursue and observe.
A more measurable objective would be the following:
1. For twenty minutes each day, for one week, have my picture taken with as many adult men as possible. Other details could be included such as, "each day, give the men a different inspiration for the photo: 'happy', 'poverty', 'comedy', 'distress'".
This is measurable and somewhat interesting, but not as interesting as something more abstract such as:
1."For one week, forge friendships with as many hipsters as possible" See what entails after the motivated artificiality ends.
or
2."Line up three dates for the weekend with three very unattractive men and hold the dates at very public locations AND perpetrate some act of PDA"
or
3. "Delve as far into a relationship as possible with Jesus over the course of a month"
TONS more details can be added to each. basically, i want to take suggestions for objectives, as abstract or specific and with as many or few details as possible and commit to the one that i choose. I feel like doing this will be really interesting and will remove a level of fear and emotional or prideful consequence and allow trial-and-error and the sheer pursuit of one priority. Understand? it's late, so i'm lackin' the brevity... but... I have been thinking about this a lot.
IDEAS?
QUESTIONS?
SUGGESTIONS?
JUBILATION T. CORNPONES?