My edited journal for today
"There's no people like show people, they smile when they are low."
I've figured out alot this past week, being under a type of house arrest so I can get better. In the past week I have learned two important things:
1. Your real friends come out when you need them most, but also when they need you.
and
2. Nathan Lane is possibly the best actor I've ever seen
I've been lying around, sitting around, clinging to the phone waiting for people to call, or pick up. Barely able to move some evenings, others walking freely around until I moved my arm or knee just a certain way. Anyways what I'm trying to lead up to is that I want to dance. Right nwo I cna't becuase my body hurts. I want to dance badley, so badley I can almost taste it. To sing would be a miracle, so I'll just ask for what is possible right now.
I mean why not ? I took lessons when I was little, and who knows? I might be good, hell I might be great.
I've been thinking about the future and what I could do. And all week I divluged myself in dreams of being an actress in N.Y.C. Truley working for my art, not having other people supress me like ususal.
Just me, a script, and the stage.
And again, who knows? I might be good. I might be great.
I'll just have to see where the road cares to take me.
I was born to do something magnificent and great with my life. It's time I lived up to that feeling I have, to become who I have always been. And that is NOT shy and insecrue. It's the imaginative, beautiful, social Goddess I know I am.
Who know's what the real me is like?
She might be good....
She might be great.