calm down
I need to get my head in the right place. I feel like everything has been so all over the place. My head is just churning and I find myself having full blown conversations in my head. I stopped to think about it earlier and realized how insane that made me feel.
Things are just so insane right now. 2010 has been a disaster so far. And along with that, I feel like I have unintentionally been being very sarcastic and frank with people for the past few days. It's rude and immature. The sad part is that I'm fully aware of what I am doing, but I don't seem to be aware of it until after I've said these uncharacteristic things. I've been swearing and making rude comments so frequently - who do I think I am to do that? There's not really a specific thing that I've done or said to anyone, but I wish I could go back and not have been so demeaning of people.
I wrote "calm down" on my hand today. I'm not sure how much it helped. Perhaps tomorrow I should write "smile" or "be happy".
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On another note, I don't know how much longer I can stand going to classes that begin with the first lecture on f-stops and shutter speeds.
Things are just so insane right now. 2010 has been a disaster so far. And along with that, I feel like I have unintentionally been being very sarcastic and frank with people for the past few days. It's rude and immature. The sad part is that I'm fully aware of what I am doing, but I don't seem to be aware of it until after I've said these uncharacteristic things. I've been swearing and making rude comments so frequently - who do I think I am to do that? There's not really a specific thing that I've done or said to anyone, but I wish I could go back and not have been so demeaning of people.
I wrote "calm down" on my hand today. I'm not sure how much it helped. Perhaps tomorrow I should write "smile" or "be happy".
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On another note, I don't know how much longer I can stand going to classes that begin with the first lecture on f-stops and shutter speeds.