just to let you guys know...
my mom is in the hospital at the moment. she went there last night because she had a seisure a couple minutes past five. starting to reconsider my previous thoughts about prayer... normally she would have been on the broken arrow expressway, stuck in 5-o-clock traffic... *getting teary-eyed again* i have been crying so much over the past few days...
anyway, she had a seisure and my dad called 911. the ambulance somehow found our house and took her to southcrest. while she was there in the ER, she had another seisure. i stayed there until 9.30pm and then left with my dad... we went to the hospital today to see her since she had to stay overnight and heard that she had had another seisure at 5 this morning. while my dad was talking to my uncle and explaining everything, my mom had another seisure. and i got to watch... it is terrible to see the woman who gave birth to you look at you with dead eyes and not understand why you're calling her 'mom'... *is crying again*
anyway, this last seisure was the worst. usually with a seisure, your heart rate is expected to go down. her's had with the last three. normal is about 80, yet when she had a seisure it was about 30. to be expected the nurses said.
this last one, her heart rate dropped to 0.
this is horrible, because they don't know why she keeps having them. they think it was a medication that she was taking, but they've put her on anti-seisure meds, and she keeps having them! *wipes eyes*
anyway, i just wanted to let you guys know incase you think i have run away or something over this weekend. kate, i don't think i'll be coming over to your house on sunday... i just have to come home and work on stuff here. and, please guys, don't come over to comfort me or anything if you were thinking of doing that. i just have to work this through with my family, and to do that i have to just be able to escape by myself and work things out on my own. give me all the hugs you want on monday, but i need this weekend to myself.
*hugs* just wanted to let ya'll know
~jen
ps: forgive the no caps, i just didn't feel like bothering
anyway, she had a seisure and my dad called 911. the ambulance somehow found our house and took her to southcrest. while she was there in the ER, she had another seisure. i stayed there until 9.30pm and then left with my dad... we went to the hospital today to see her since she had to stay overnight and heard that she had had another seisure at 5 this morning. while my dad was talking to my uncle and explaining everything, my mom had another seisure. and i got to watch... it is terrible to see the woman who gave birth to you look at you with dead eyes and not understand why you're calling her 'mom'... *is crying again*
anyway, this last seisure was the worst. usually with a seisure, your heart rate is expected to go down. her's had with the last three. normal is about 80, yet when she had a seisure it was about 30. to be expected the nurses said.
this last one, her heart rate dropped to 0.
this is horrible, because they don't know why she keeps having them. they think it was a medication that she was taking, but they've put her on anti-seisure meds, and she keeps having them! *wipes eyes*
anyway, i just wanted to let you guys know incase you think i have run away or something over this weekend. kate, i don't think i'll be coming over to your house on sunday... i just have to come home and work on stuff here. and, please guys, don't come over to comfort me or anything if you were thinking of doing that. i just have to work this through with my family, and to do that i have to just be able to escape by myself and work things out on my own. give me all the hugs you want on monday, but i need this weekend to myself.
*hugs* just wanted to let ya'll know
~jen
ps: forgive the no caps, i just didn't feel like bothering