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Grrr. it is not fair others can be thinner! i mean, sure i understand they may have great genetics and thinner parents than mine {EXTREMELY likely} but still...it really hurts and makes me feel like a failure. its like, all my efforts are worthless................I found some extra money in my bank and since my belly seems a bit better than it was last week, I was going to the grocery store and find fibre-rich foods to get my digestive system regular. from those horrid laxatives. i was thinking of All Bran, Light soy milk and maybe apricots. I know, that if I eat all bran and i still can't go...my stomach will hurt tremendously and i'll experience complete discomfort so i'm taking a chance here , cuz i dont really wanna go to the doc's. =( ...its so unfair i have to suffer like this cuz i was stupid enuff
2 take those pills!!! i would be sooo happy if i could just go! *blush*. then i can eat again. my house is chockful of veggies, fruits and chicken. there is like virtually no carbs except boxes of uncooked pasta which I know I am unlikely to eat...cuz i dont feel like binging...my teeth really really hurt! its strange.
so tomorrow i'll pick up the all bran and try to go...hopefully all goes well. i can't wait to start eating again...500 cals. eatin small and healthy throughout the day will help me lose more weight than not eating at all...plus i wanna beat those 2 incredibly impossibly thin girls i seen today...I want to be the thinnest ME!!!!
2 take those pills!!! i would be sooo happy if i could just go! *blush*. then i can eat again. my house is chockful of veggies, fruits and chicken. there is like virtually no carbs except boxes of uncooked pasta which I know I am unlikely to eat...cuz i dont feel like binging...my teeth really really hurt! its strange.
so tomorrow i'll pick up the all bran and try to go...hopefully all goes well. i can't wait to start eating again...500 cals. eatin small and healthy throughout the day will help me lose more weight than not eating at all...plus i wanna beat those 2 incredibly impossibly thin girls i seen today...I want to be the thinnest ME!!!!