short update
I've been so busy for so long, and have tons of posts to catch up on, but wanted to give a short update. I've been admitted to the Transatlantic History program of UT, which came as a shock, especially since I hadn't even gotten all my docs in by the deadline. I figured I'd get in for next year, if anything, but as soon as the deadline was past, they e-mailed that I'd been accepted and had been given a generous assistantship and the Dean's Excellence Award. It's pretty crazy to me that stuff like this keeps happening. I know I've got 'imposter syndrome' really bad, feeling like I'm some kind of poser and they'll catch onto me any day now. I felt like that in Glasgow, and I still do.
I've been in Dallas just a few days now, and love being here. It feels very right to me.
Things with Chris are really good too. After an initial burst of awesomeness when I got back, we went through a pretty difficult adjustment period for awhile, but things have been back on track for a couple of months now, and are really happy. And you know, I think this kind of stable but periodically turbulent relationship is exactly what I need, and what works best for me. Weirdly enough, my most stable relationships were always stormy ones. It's a certain kind of dynamic I just thrive on - not mindless drama for its own sake, but knowing the stability's there, underneath it all, and that you'll always stick it out and wind up making up. For me, that solid but rocky passion is the only thing that feels like real love and commitment.
October's gonna be a super busy month, because we've got all kind of things scheduled, and I'll also be doing grad school on top of it. We have a cruise to Mexico the beginning of the month, immediately followed by the Freakers' Ball rock concert, almost immediately followed by Comicon. Then there's Halloween, by then we might be too tired or I might be too busy to do much.
On a completely different note, I was surprised to find out today that the instructor I'm assisting is young and hot and dynamic. Heh. I'd imagined him as some old, plodding guy. I love his teaching style, very exciting and engaging.
I'm staying with my friend Lina until I can get an apartment, which will hopefully be very soon. That's great too, she's the friend I spent so many years looking for and finally reconnected with. They have a huge dream home of a house, though I don't think it's really as comfortable as I'd prefer. Hopefully I won't mess anything up while I'm here, doh.
Okay, that's what's going on with me. Have to go to bed now, since tomorrow's the only day I have to get everything done I need to do before I go to OKC for Labor Day weekend.
Really loving this song lately -
It came over me at a bad time
But who wouldn't ride on a moonlit line?
I've been in Dallas just a few days now, and love being here. It feels very right to me.
Things with Chris are really good too. After an initial burst of awesomeness when I got back, we went through a pretty difficult adjustment period for awhile, but things have been back on track for a couple of months now, and are really happy. And you know, I think this kind of stable but periodically turbulent relationship is exactly what I need, and what works best for me. Weirdly enough, my most stable relationships were always stormy ones. It's a certain kind of dynamic I just thrive on - not mindless drama for its own sake, but knowing the stability's there, underneath it all, and that you'll always stick it out and wind up making up. For me, that solid but rocky passion is the only thing that feels like real love and commitment.
October's gonna be a super busy month, because we've got all kind of things scheduled, and I'll also be doing grad school on top of it. We have a cruise to Mexico the beginning of the month, immediately followed by the Freakers' Ball rock concert, almost immediately followed by Comicon. Then there's Halloween, by then we might be too tired or I might be too busy to do much.
On a completely different note, I was surprised to find out today that the instructor I'm assisting is young and hot and dynamic. Heh. I'd imagined him as some old, plodding guy. I love his teaching style, very exciting and engaging.
I'm staying with my friend Lina until I can get an apartment, which will hopefully be very soon. That's great too, she's the friend I spent so many years looking for and finally reconnected with. They have a huge dream home of a house, though I don't think it's really as comfortable as I'd prefer. Hopefully I won't mess anything up while I'm here, doh.
Okay, that's what's going on with me. Have to go to bed now, since tomorrow's the only day I have to get everything done I need to do before I go to OKC for Labor Day weekend.
Really loving this song lately -
Click to viewIt came over me at a bad time
But who wouldn't ride on a moonlit line?