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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going insane here... and I still have an entire month left. I get up at 6 every morning. I deal with bratty kids for five hours. I come home and live the rest of the day as a recluse. I go to sleep and it starts over. I'm gaining weight like crazy and I'm broken out all over the place. I feel like hell. I feel like my life is amounting to nothing. And worse of all, I am jealous of certain friends for how wonderful there lives are right now. What have I done to deserve this incredibly big painful karmic smack? All I can see right now is how unfair things are. Which isn' a good sign for me because usually I can find something good to cling to. I don't even want to go to Kentucky next weekend because I fear my attitude will ruin everything. I want my old good life back. I want it back... it's unfair.