I've started to write again. hm
I've never felt a feelint like this before.
I've never been so physically sick.
My mind's never been so emotionally unstable,
I've never had this bad of a body image.
It's like my insides are melting,
but I mold them together each day just to help you.
You ask me how I'm doing,
I say "I'm fine."
I lie as to not bother your own book of lies and decite.
You go through heaven and hell each day.
And each horrible thing you go through,
I never have anthing to say.
I just want to be there for you.
I just want to be good enough.
Today I'm too fat.
Tomorrow I'm ugly.
I've lost track of who I really am.
All I know is that I love you,
And I don't know what else to do.
The thing is, I usually do.
I'll live with the crappy feelings,
the pain, and the self image.
And I'll keep it going until we're through.
<3
I've never been so physically sick.
My mind's never been so emotionally unstable,
I've never had this bad of a body image.
It's like my insides are melting,
but I mold them together each day just to help you.
You ask me how I'm doing,
I say "I'm fine."
I lie as to not bother your own book of lies and decite.
You go through heaven and hell each day.
And each horrible thing you go through,
I never have anthing to say.
I just want to be there for you.
I just want to be good enough.
Today I'm too fat.
Tomorrow I'm ugly.
I've lost track of who I really am.
All I know is that I love you,
And I don't know what else to do.
The thing is, I usually do.
I'll live with the crappy feelings,
the pain, and the self image.
And I'll keep it going until we're through.
<3