multi foci
Haven't been writing here everyday. Haven't been keeping my promise. Haven't been using first person pronouns.
I am feeling constant near-future anxiety. Here's the thing: I'll do something like listen to Dashel's band (A Million Years Ago) for the first time and feel this flood of love for Seattle and music and art and living poor and sleeping on floors and dumpstering boxes of tofu. It's strong; like, it breaks levies and leaves millions of little academic cells gasping for breath. Then, next day, I'll go to an incredible conference on Hinduism, complete with the best South Asian scholars in the world, and feel motivated and inspired to do nothing but study and travel. Depending on the mood and day I feel equally at home in both communities. Unfortunately, these passions are irreconcilable. At least inasmuch as they both deserve real commitment, neither should be half-assed. So, I'm left easily swayed, maybe naive, emotionally peripatetic. Just need to get stuff done now and think about the future then.
I am feeling constant near-future anxiety. Here's the thing: I'll do something like listen to Dashel's band (A Million Years Ago) for the first time and feel this flood of love for Seattle and music and art and living poor and sleeping on floors and dumpstering boxes of tofu. It's strong; like, it breaks levies and leaves millions of little academic cells gasping for breath. Then, next day, I'll go to an incredible conference on Hinduism, complete with the best South Asian scholars in the world, and feel motivated and inspired to do nothing but study and travel. Depending on the mood and day I feel equally at home in both communities. Unfortunately, these passions are irreconcilable. At least inasmuch as they both deserve real commitment, neither should be half-assed. So, I'm left easily swayed, maybe naive, emotionally peripatetic. Just need to get stuff done now and think about the future then.