Juice fast day 16
I'm struggling today. In fact, I'm journaling in an attempt to get my mind out of the food.
I've convinced myself that I need more protein - and perhaps I do. I had an all fruit smoothie today, size small, with a protein supplement. This is the closest thing to regular food I have had in over 2 weeks. It's made my head do the crazy though and that part is the suck. I think the reason I am thinking I need protein is that the food I am craving is legumes or meat - but mainly legumes, in specific black beans, but I will try and hold on. Hopefully my sponsor will return the call soon. I really want to do this for the full 8 weeks. I don't like that my resolve is shaking. I have lost 20 lbs in 2 weeks - and I fear that if I go back to eating solids now, that it will come right back - and I don't know that I would deal with that very well and it might just put me back into the food. I do not want that.
I just called my sponsor - I really need something to build me up. I may watch my 'fasting movie' again - I need something to keep my resolve. I sincerely hope this hunger does not bother me tomorrow at work.
Meeting was good today - Olivia and Katie were curiously absent though - not sure what's up with that, as they both said they'd be there. I will call them later in the week.
I've convinced myself that I need more protein - and perhaps I do. I had an all fruit smoothie today, size small, with a protein supplement. This is the closest thing to regular food I have had in over 2 weeks. It's made my head do the crazy though and that part is the suck. I think the reason I am thinking I need protein is that the food I am craving is legumes or meat - but mainly legumes, in specific black beans, but I will try and hold on. Hopefully my sponsor will return the call soon. I really want to do this for the full 8 weeks. I don't like that my resolve is shaking. I have lost 20 lbs in 2 weeks - and I fear that if I go back to eating solids now, that it will come right back - and I don't know that I would deal with that very well and it might just put me back into the food. I do not want that.
I just called my sponsor - I really need something to build me up. I may watch my 'fasting movie' again - I need something to keep my resolve. I sincerely hope this hunger does not bother me tomorrow at work.
Meeting was good today - Olivia and Katie were curiously absent though - not sure what's up with that, as they both said they'd be there. I will call them later in the week.