i`am really begining to hate some ppl
how the fuck do ppl do it ! your feelings are just fucking nothing to them after you have opened up to 'n' been there cared for and shared so fucking much with ! listened ,tried to understand from the only perspective you ONLY CAN !
it burns me inside like a fucking boiling pan oil of emotions in my chest like a constant fucking panik attack ! just wanting to smash this fucking house to shit ,shoot the dog then just take the fucking saved up meds and just go over fall asleep forever and not go through this one sided monotonous feeling anymore
it dont matter to them cos they never really gave a fucking shit really!!! as i knew at the time i`d be just a fuckin` disposable soul to play with - i hurt i hate i feel crushed i feel damn fucking angry i just want them to hurt like me feel my angst and i better fuck off before i smash this fuckin keyboard over the fucking monitor and set fire to this fucking place i dunno iam so fucking outraged i dunno i just dont fucking know_
it burns me inside like a fucking boiling pan oil of emotions in my chest like a constant fucking panik attack ! just wanting to smash this fucking house to shit ,shoot the dog then just take the fucking saved up meds and just go over fall asleep forever and not go through this one sided monotonous feeling anymore
it dont matter to them cos they never really gave a fucking shit really!!! as i knew at the time i`d be just a fuckin` disposable soul to play with - i hurt i hate i feel crushed i feel damn fucking angry i just want them to hurt like me feel my angst and i better fuck off before i smash this fuckin keyboard over the fucking monitor and set fire to this fucking place i dunno iam so fucking outraged i dunno i just dont fucking know_