Man I used to love Fridays last year. Thats until I started workin..
Havent done nothin the past couple days besides work and school. Im diggin the new classes tho, I know Ive said it before lol. Me and Chris laff so much in SSE lol. Man were always dyin. The period is like 45 minutes long and we laff for about 40 lol. Uncle Phil (Lady's Favorite) came over today after I got off the one session. He wasnt in the house for more than a minute when he said "The house just isnt the same with out LuLu here." By LuLu he meant the dog. And he so right that it hurts. I went into the other room and cried. A quick cry, but a cry all the same. Whenever Im around Uncle Phil I'll always think of Lady. Maybe because he was her favorite. Maybe because when she was with him she was his happiest. Or maybe, I just miss her. Maybe all of the above. I know he misses her alot too. We usually goof around alot, but he probly still thinks I am sad, and maybe he is still sad too. Maybe he just dont wanna rough house anymore because it wont be the same. He'll be kickin my ass, then Lady hears us, runs into the room, and saves me. Thats just how great a dog she was. Shed always try and protect me. But now if we wrestled, there wouldnt be my other partner to help me out. Im still not used to this. When I come in the house late, I still try to be really quiet. Im just so used to trying to not wake up the dog so that shell bark and then wake up mom. But there is no bark. Whenever I think of not seeing her again, my heart just drops into my stomach. A part of me will never be over her death. I got too adjusted to her being with me all the time. Im scarred for life what am I gonna do? Its weird cause like all of her stuff is still in the house. Her bowls, her food, her blanket, and her scent. When I walk into the house I still smell a dogsmell kind of. Whenever I see a piece of yellow hair, I just pick it up and stare it. I know I seem obssessive sorry, but I just love and miss her so much. I just stare at it and say, man you were alive when this shedded off of your body. Does like anyone know what I mean? Its kinda hard to explain. But I dont know why no one has picked up all of Lad's stuff. I guess we dont want things to change? I dont know but I kinda like the house with all of her stuff. I dont know why. If you have a dog just realize how lucky you truly are. You really dont know how much something meants to you until its gone. Anyways, on a lighter note, I'll be off work by 4:30 if someone wants to do sum with me. On Sunday gotta work till 4, Id love to do sumthin but I have to watch Eagles win! Alright guys Ill ttyl