lazy sunday
Yea last night I had a good time. Went to the city to see mia and with scott h. and my mom. I drove the car into the city and it was interesting. Yea then i was talkin to tasha and i picked her up brought her back to my house at like 11 then we went to wendys and drove over to the linense and things parking lot. And like tasha my sister and i were just eatting out food and being retarded talking about like rca van memories and then these cars fun of guys pulled up and started being all lame>which lead to the joke about how they hang out in the linens and things parking lot on saterday nights, and there was this cart that started like rolling across the parking lot and these kids playing football and this random car whith like 12 people and i swear to u >THEy were HAVING an ORGY in that car>LOL it was so funny i swear to u . It was lots of fun. Then today i did not to much. My ears hurt alot from tbone peircing then on friday and like i talked to tash and sara and hung out.I argued with my mother only to find out that she doesn't listen to me. A kids worst fear is that parents never listen to them but she actually admitted it. She knows nothing about me and she doesn't even try..its like i find out somthing about myself and i reaserch it and check out how life is different and my mom just sits there assuming the worst like she doesn't even care to know anything but the worst. Its kinda sad and it made me cry a little. I need to get out of this house or somthing..maybe i should run away..i dono bout that but i'm just so out of it. I'm not sure what is going on with me. My weight keeps going up and down and i don't recognize myself anymore.its like my apperance has changed. My life has changed and i'm not sure i like it. I'm not sure of anything.Especially guys...yea my weakness>damn me alot. I'm so alone and sad and yea.I think maybe it should stay that way because i'm so messed up like do i actually need to pull another guy into my insanity>no.i really want to though. I'm really afraid to. Its not like i have any takers though>i just think to myself somtimes i'm so ugly and i really hate the way i look>i'm insicure to the max but i can't help it.I just..i dono.. Been doin alot of thinking latly>yea i turn 17 in 3 months..were did the time go.I feel like i'm still 12 years old. The year is almost gone>everyone is going to move away and i'll be a little older and things will be different.I will probibly never see christian again..yea i'm kinda whiney and pathetic I'm guna go finish some stuff up but please look at my website full of picture i made today!!!-ana