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I did one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I had to let Sheena go tonight, and I had to do it without crying. I recognize that she needs time, she isn't ready for a committed relationship, she isn't happy with me anymore. I love her above anything, and I want her to be happy above anything, so I had to let her go. As much as this kills me inside, I know it is the right thing to do. She needs to go date other people, go be with other people, because she needs to love the way that I am able to. She deserves the best, and to be happy -- neither of which I am fulfilling. I pray that she will realize what she is losing, that the love I have for her doesn't just come at the snap of a finger. I pray that she'll still come to Cincinnati and realize that she does still love me and will want to try. Perhaps that is why I'm not completely destroyed at the moment, I still have faith that she will change her mind. However, I need to recognize that that won't happen and that I need to go ahead and let myself die inside, so that I can be reborn. Who knows what the future holds, but the present holds pain...and too much for me to cope with. Please help me Lord, guide me in what I am supposed to do.

Please call me.