howdy! my name is taryn. moo.
i doubt anybody will really do this BUT! i will post it!!!!
If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.
If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.
It's johnny. I know we don't talk much anymore...or well havn't even talked to each other at all in the past few months. i sent u an e-mail a while ago. i don't know if ya got it or not (my e-mail thingy screws up a lot...f***ing yahoo), but i miss talkin to u. we should chat sometime on the phone to catch up if u want. well, anyways i got two memories. one good and one bad.
GOOD- The day i met you. Cuz after that day i had so many more good memories with you that really changed my life. all the late night internet conversations, the letters, and the phone calls that lasted until like 4 in the mornin lol. talking to u always made me smile no matter how bad of a day i had. and thinking about u and always waiting for the day to see you gave me something to be excited about and wake up for in the morning. i had so many good times talking to u. meeting u was one of the best things that happened in my life.
BAD- The day i found out that u wouldn't be in town when i came to jupiter. That was seriously one of the worst days of my life. i know things ended between us. sometimes i wonder what it would be like if they didn't. but thats how it was. u might think im crazy, but i never threw away the letters u sent me. i guess i never wanted to give up hope on us. i still really care for you, taryn. i doubt you feel the same way. i know it's been a long time, u may have even just about forgot about me. but when i come down this summer, i'd really really like to see you. cassidy said she didn't know if u were gonna be in j-town at all this summer, but if u are then i really wanna see you. me and cass are probly coming down at the same time. i know we've had our ups and downs and havn't talked in a long time, but if i do get to see you, maybe we could just go out one night for the sake of old times and see how things go.
o damn it, what i'm really trying to say taryn and what i've been holding in the past 6 months is that i've regretted breaking things off between us soooo much. i know our relationship was basically just over the internet, but i don't care. someway, somehow i felt more connected to u than any of the girls i've dated in the past few months. i know things could probably never be the same as before and i wouldn't expect them to be. i'm not just expecting u to have missed me too and things go back to the way they were. i'm not expecting to start up the internet relationship again, but what i really wish taryn, is that you'd just let me take you out on a date when i come down. i know i fucked things up before, but i just want one more chance. i don't want to live my whole life wondering what if and knowing that i might have messed things up with the perfect girl. like i said, i'm not expecting you to put your whole dating life on hold and wait for me to come down. in fact, that's the main reason i broke things off between us. i thought that i was kind of holding you back. i felt that it was the right thing to do, to let you go and date other guys in florida. i mean after all, you're a beautiful teenage girl. u should have been able to see other guys. i thought it would be better for u that way. i don't know if i was right or not. i don't know if you've met a guy down there that you like more than you did me or not. But, i was stupid enough to think i could find someone half as special as you here in ohio. i havn't. u might have found someone you like better than me down there...i'm not sure. but i'm just asking that you reserve one date for me please. give me one more chance when i come down. and im sorry i'm saying all of this over this online journal thing. i wanted to call you and tell you all of this before. i've wanted to call you and tell you for so long, but i just couldn't bring myself to do it. i was too nervous and im so nervous saying all of this on here now. i'm worried your gonna think im crazy. but plz don't. its just that i miss you.
-johnny-
P.S.: I'm sorry it took me so long to say this. and if this freaks you out, i'm sorry. I just had to finally tell you how i feel.
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