i want to shrivel up so no one can see

[bobtheking88]

it was inevitable.... these feelings have returned....despair.... hopelessness..... only my friends can reassure me that i can make it through this...poor beth... she's all alone.... im so horrible.... i can't concentrate... these feelings are overwhelming, i need to take action to get rid of these feelings that i strive to make others shun and disappear... i can do it... i need a plan.... ian and tom will aid me.... i can't lift anything, breathing is a chore.... i always try to help those get up, but when i go down...i can't... God please help me.... i can barely type... fear runs cold through my viens...i need to break out from this pit-prison, help.....

this is heavy

-smile more-.....