I don't know hy but I'm feeling generally depessed right now..
So, I'm home right now. I'm supposed to be at medeival times with Brian, his g/f, rob, stef, and veronica. I got home from the mentor training thing and I just fell sleep basically. I just didn't feel good...more mentally than physically. I didn't call anyone to tell them I waasn't going I just slept. I heard my phone ring and my doorbell ring but I didn't get up. I just feel like being alone...but I really want to be with someone right now. I basically napped for like 4 hours. I hate feeling like this. Not only am I generally depressed but I'm angry that I basically blew off my friends, and I hate when people do that. I don't like this person....One the up side I'm sort of writing more music and feel better about my lyrical skills...although not confident enough to share. I really can't comrehend how people can write lyrics and then sing them in front of other people. It blows my mind. But anyway, I don't know what to do with my self right now. I ate like half a pint of ice cream before. Maybe it's PMS.....lol I really want to start school again so I can take my mind off things. This whole week is nice but doing nothing kind of sucks. I have to go to work tomorrow and I'm procrastinating calling because then I'd have to talk to someone. I want to feel love again. I want to kiss someone..but not anyone specific. I just have the urge to make out with someone...preferably a girl:-). lol I downloaded some miss saigon songs which makes me Happy and Sad. I think I like sad songs better because they are so powerful. Like when Kim sings "I still taste your kisses" I get a little teary eyed. That's why I love musicals. They can evoke so much emotion because they combine a powerful story that's reinforced with beautiful melodies. I've always been jealous of peole that can write a great melody. It's so hard for me. Ok, I dont' feel like typing this, I'm just gonna go sulk and listen to miss saigon and then get over it and go to work tomorrow. Good bye.