I wonder if you don't feel anything when you go and do something like that...
Well, a day is a day and thats the best you can expect from any given day. So, my day was pretty much that. Ups and dOWNS are a regular visitor these days. Losing anything feels like a slam, but on second thought I often realize that the only thing hurt is my pride. Some people are better at things than other people, and accepting that makes it all ok. You cant win em all, and I suppose if you did you have no reason to keep trying. I was happy with our bounce today. yes, LHS JV got beat, but Im confident that with another half hour we would have pulled ahead. Why fathom that? Well Nate, Im a dreamer. Irrelevent as it were, yet it is something that affects the deepest and most shallow occurances of my life. As laX fits somewhere in between those, it is affected by my state of mind. My dreams arent always pleasent, and on occasion I find them to be flat out ridiculous, on other occasions (science for example) they are quite inconvenient.
I do/say regrettable things, and my face is hot and I am wrong. I want to stop those things. They are nearly unbearable. They frustrate the dear people who put up with me on a regular basis. I cant often explain my behaviors. Again I am a frustration to the people I love. CHANGE ME!!! But then would I be a different person? I think life is about coming to terms with who you are. It is possible that you are born knowing yourself, and the struggle you face is just to be okay with that. Sure other people know you, but not better, they've just accepted what they see, while you are busy fighting it. Accepting that you are a certain way, even if its not something you want to be, may help you face it and change it. How can you fight something you wont admit exists? These unfinished ideas have no deffinite answers, this is only my interpretation of the thoughts I possess as seconds pass.
Im done.
I do/say regrettable things, and my face is hot and I am wrong. I want to stop those things. They are nearly unbearable. They frustrate the dear people who put up with me on a regular basis. I cant often explain my behaviors. Again I am a frustration to the people I love. CHANGE ME!!! But then would I be a different person? I think life is about coming to terms with who you are. It is possible that you are born knowing yourself, and the struggle you face is just to be okay with that. Sure other people know you, but not better, they've just accepted what they see, while you are busy fighting it. Accepting that you are a certain way, even if its not something you want to be, may help you face it and change it. How can you fight something you wont admit exists? These unfinished ideas have no deffinite answers, this is only my interpretation of the thoughts I possess as seconds pass.
Im done.