i guess "i'm the one making it weird now"
i wrote this shit almost a year ago. and sadly, i still feel like that...
bastard you disgust me. my stomach writes and twists. you never cared for anyone not on your "to do" list. all my pain and anger stems from actions that you do. i even hate my friends sometimes when theyre hanging out with you. and misplaced irritation makes my time go bad. hard to beleive one stupid kid could make my mind so mad. they say that time will heal all wounds but i'm still picking at the scab. i fucking hate your guts sometimes but never say a word. i'm too polite and its not right but it seems i'll remain unheard. i'm feeling sick for no reason and its driving me insane. my life is so carefree until the mention of your name. and i can never get away from this torture when you're around my smiling face goes sour and my soul sinks to the ground my skateboard loses magic my life is flipped around. and i fucking HATE THIS SHIT, i STILL cant push it away. i fucking wish you'g GO but i see you day to day. my fucking life is shot to pieces when everything else is great. i want to love and live my life but i STILL CANT LET GO OF THIS HATE
bastard you disgust me. my stomach writes and twists. you never cared for anyone not on your "to do" list. all my pain and anger stems from actions that you do. i even hate my friends sometimes when theyre hanging out with you. and misplaced irritation makes my time go bad. hard to beleive one stupid kid could make my mind so mad. they say that time will heal all wounds but i'm still picking at the scab. i fucking hate your guts sometimes but never say a word. i'm too polite and its not right but it seems i'll remain unheard. i'm feeling sick for no reason and its driving me insane. my life is so carefree until the mention of your name. and i can never get away from this torture when you're around my smiling face goes sour and my soul sinks to the ground my skateboard loses magic my life is flipped around. and i fucking HATE THIS SHIT, i STILL cant push it away. i fucking wish you'g GO but i see you day to day. my fucking life is shot to pieces when everything else is great. i want to love and live my life but i STILL CANT LET GO OF THIS HATE