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I think I'm going to be stuck on the Black team again this year, and I'm really pissed off. It's got some of my friends on it, but then so does the Orange team. And I KNOW I'm good enough to play there. Black doesn't really use all of my abilities, and I'm just going to wind up killing the coach from frustration. I'm going to talk to her at the meeting tonight. There's no way I'll quit soccer, but I could spend the entire season miserable (like I was in band this year, but worse). If I hadn't broken my toe this would all be different. If I was on the black team at least I'd know I belonged there, but I probably wouldn't be anyway. Plus I'd know the people on my team. I'll feel so isolated this year. Even though I know some people, they know others, and there'll always be some time when I'll be alone & feel guilty for being shy.
So, complaining and emoness aside, I'm actually looking forward to school starting. I know that's kinda weird, but then I'll get to see people again. I was gone for a whole month this summer, and I never see some people outside of school at all. Maybe this year I'll get more than two classes with my friends! Last year sorta sucked like that. That's what I'm really happy about. Everything is going to change, and I sorta need that.
So, complaining and emoness aside, I'm actually looking forward to school starting. I know that's kinda weird, but then I'll get to see people again. I was gone for a whole month this summer, and I never see some people outside of school at all. Maybe this year I'll get more than two classes with my friends! Last year sorta sucked like that. That's what I'm really happy about. Everything is going to change, and I sorta need that.