(no subject)
so, day 4 of not hearing from kevin. i guess i've just gotten so used to texting several times a day and talking about every other day. i feel like a crack addict going through withdrawl. i'm ok until about 10 when we usually talk. i've cried 3 times in the last 4 days. and that's not me. i'm not a crier!. anyways, i wrote a dear john letter, wherein i explain that i like him and that i want him to come down, but maybe we should call off his visit and while we're at it maybe we should call off this whole thing we have going on. i felt a little better afterwards and still a little better when i woke up this morning. i just... i really question whether or not i can do this. because he IS right, what happens after his visit? am i his girlfriend. the thought of doing a long distance relationship doesn't really excite me. especially if this is what happens when we're not even together. bleh. this sucks.