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I'm really scared.I feel like I'm making the same mistakes all over again and part of my brain is saying stop don't let things go too far this time because I can't lose another friend through my own selfishness and idiocy.I want to believe even if the same things happened the ending would be different because it's a different person.But I didn't see it coming the first time and I just don't want someone I'm close to to leave again.Because it's the worst feeling and I don't know how to deal with it other than complaining constantly which only pushes all my other friends away. I don't want to do that again I'm so scared