THEODORA WHERE ARE YOU?

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so im at my friends house now. johns my friend whose house im at. i had work tonight and it was alright. im visiting jesse tomorow. dreading tomorow night, you know whats up...current mood:depressed to the max x2 squared. next friday or saturday we should hang out, go to a movie or something, let me know if you want to. anybody who wants a date or to just hang out, let me knmow. so im on the bus right, curled up in a ball listening to this wicked intense dashboard song. im just sitting there, fucking staring at the x's on my hand, and thinking to myself, how much i just want to say fuck this, and put my fucking hand right through the fucking window. and fucking leave it there. right???? you know whats up...so tomorrow i think i'm going to wake up, and have some soi milk for breakfast i just really dont believe in hurting the animals, what did they ever do to us in the first place...animal liberation. ill probaly be straight edge the first half of the day, but later when i go to that party, i want to be cool, so i think i'll get all "fucked up" and maybe not remember the rest of the night, then i'll put on my tight pants that cuff at my sauconeys, or maybe my chuck taylors, i'm really not sure which ones are in today, then i figure i'll put on my team shirt, or my sweater, and i'll make sure that my hair is nice and long, cause i think thats whats cool now, i'm not sure, let me know... i'm not sure though, then i'll hit up savers, and do some "shopping" haha, you know whats up... i love going there cause they have all these retro cloths, they are really me i think or the lead singer of that band thats getting popular,its really me being an individualist, after i think i'm going to go buy some more canvasas for my paintings and maybe some new detail brushes, i'm really getting into art lately, and i'm thinking about renting some foreign indepentant films too, and maybe a sewing kit, or two...you know whats up...after that i think that i will probably go to some sort of underground show and mosh and be hardcore, when i return home i'll spray some cologne so my parents dont smell my cloves, after that i will probably retire to a band that really sucks, but everyone else likes them, so i'm down with that...you know whats up...and thats my day, -your scene is dead - xobby jack

by the way, i feel bad about what i did, honostly, im sorry i cant be everything to you, i wish things could be different, im sorry...