Another long time

[bobcatlb4205]

I don't remember how I keep forgetting to update this thing. I guess I'm getting into the summer a little bit too much. Summer only has about 3 weeks left and after this coming Thursday, I will finally be able to start planning more things to do with Lauren. Of course, the best part of the summer is yet to come. I think we all know what that may be. When the parents are away to Las Vegas, the Ryan will play very much. I just can't wait for that to happen. First and foremost I have to get through another 4 days without Lauren. She's going on "Family vacation". This vacation though for her will probably be the most fun because she at least will get to drive jet skis and drive her Jeep all over the place. She leaves on Monday and then she gets back Thursday. It's really only about 3 days f her being gone but I know that it will feel like a hell of a lot more. It seems though like she has become a very important person to everyone. She has only 6 days before she turns 16 and can drive. Her sister is already asking her to drive her all over the place. She has told me that she is gonna be driving me around places but I don't think so because I love driving. SO let's get to what has gone down this weekend. Yesterday, I had to go get my senior pictures done. They were ok I guess. The place was very professional though. When I first walked in the door, I felt like I was in some funeral home. Don't ask me why I felt that way. So I go back there and get my pictures done. Took me all of about 30 minutes. Oh yeah, I failed to mentioned that my baby was with me. So anyways, Lauren and I leave and we start driving home and I decided that I wanted to spend more time with her. So on our way to go pick up my check and my schedule for this coming week, I asked her if she wanted to come over before her parents went out for the night. Of course she came over for about 3 hours. The plan as for me to drop her off for "dinner" and then when her parents had been gone for about 2 hours I was supposed to come over. Well that got scrapped because Lauren's sister Molly didn't want her to get caught if they came home early. So I agreed to stay home instead and then we were gonna do something tonight. So I just talked to her on the phone. she wanted to go to bed but her parents were't home so she wasn't able to. I finally talked her into going to bed and we hung up at about 1215. Well her parents came bouncing in soon after we hung up the phone. The only thing I could think of after I got off the phone with her was, "Molly just didn't want me over there at all. I should have gone anyways." Well, I figured that I was gonna see her tonight so why push the issue. Well, tonight's plans were scrapped early in the day. For some reason, Lauren's friend Katie "needs" Lauren to go to Baytown with her tonight. I don't know why and I guess I never will know unless Lauren tells me soon. I just don't know why she would want to go with Katie to Baytown without a reason for going. Tonight was the last night that I could see her until her birthday. Friday is up in the air because she doesn't know if her parents are gonna do something for her or what. I wanna do something with her Friday night just the two of us. Next Saturday she's having a party with all her friends and then Sunday she's going out with her family to dinner. I don't know why but everything that I want to do gets scrapped because whomever I'm doing the fun stuff with goes off with someone else. No wonder I'm a loner most of the time. My friends don't want to do anything anymore except hangout until 1 a.m. I can't do that because my curfew is 12 unless I'm staying at someone's house. I don't think I've ever been this bored on a weekend during the summer. I just wanna scream and tell people that I'm way more important than the world itself. I'm just irritated right now and this is the only place that I can vent. I can't really vent to my baby because some of the things I'm venting about have to do with her or her friends. I just needed to do this so badly. The only bad thing is that this is gonna be read by everyone on my buddy list. I don't really care though. I'm in need of something to do!!!!

Lauren, I just wanted to finish what was started yesterday. Looks like I'll have to start all over when you get back. I love you more than anything in the world. I can't believe that I was put in your path. You are so beautiful, Baby!! I love you so much!!! -Ry