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I get it now.
Thinking about an upcoming chat with both of my parents together, I get another little insight into my using and associated behaviors in Prescott. The house we rented was apparently damaged to the point that we were charged 3 thousand some dollars in repairs (mostly the carpet and them patching, well re-patching and painting the walls). Luckily we had two people living there illegally so we're splitting it five ways instead of three ;) There were definitely some parties there that weren't by my invitation. So I used it to compare out of the situation, thinking that none of the damage was my fault. My logic was that it was them who threw the parties and therefore none of the damage was my fault. I still feel that way too a large degree, but I also caused damages that I chose to overlook, such as the hole I punched in the wall after getting in a fight with my ex-girlfriend and breaking my phone. Just as it turned out to be a very good thing that I broke my phone (the one with the number of the guy who could have gotten me meth) I'm willing to accept paying for the damn hole if it was part of the situation of me avoiding killing myself at a much faster rate. Anyways. Long story short. I don't feel like placing blame when we all have pay our share anyways. resentments are no bueno.
~Sal
Thinking about an upcoming chat with both of my parents together, I get another little insight into my using and associated behaviors in Prescott. The house we rented was apparently damaged to the point that we were charged 3 thousand some dollars in repairs (mostly the carpet and them patching, well re-patching and painting the walls). Luckily we had two people living there illegally so we're splitting it five ways instead of three ;) There were definitely some parties there that weren't by my invitation. So I used it to compare out of the situation, thinking that none of the damage was my fault. My logic was that it was them who threw the parties and therefore none of the damage was my fault. I still feel that way too a large degree, but I also caused damages that I chose to overlook, such as the hole I punched in the wall after getting in a fight with my ex-girlfriend and breaking my phone. Just as it turned out to be a very good thing that I broke my phone (the one with the number of the guy who could have gotten me meth) I'm willing to accept paying for the damn hole if it was part of the situation of me avoiding killing myself at a much faster rate. Anyways. Long story short. I don't feel like placing blame when we all have pay our share anyways. resentments are no bueno.
~Sal