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well, this is just simply a random rant. i really don't have a title for it quite frankly. and I really don't feel inclined to do so.
anyway, things are pretty much the same as they ever were. Grandma is still in the hospital, and I hear she's a bit depressed, so hopefully my calling her will lift her spirits a bit.
also, I got the back tires on my car replaced finally, yeah it cost me $167, but it's either that or risk having a blowout while I'm out on the road, and quite frankly , my fucking car already broke down on me once before when the fucking fan belt broke. don't need any of that extra crap quite frankly.
let's see, Friday night Rocky went off without a hitch as usual, except Pam and I didn't get to sit in the front like we usually do. Rae Rae was there, but we didn't get to hang out on the weekend, which I think is a disgrace, I mean she's telling me all about how she had been planning to do such and such with her friend for a while, which is all well and good, but as it stands she's always bloody working and it could be forever and a day before another opportunity presents itself for her to hang out with Pam and myself, and even then she'll probably pull another friend out of the ether to hang out with before she'll hang out with me.
i don't mean to sound bitter, i get that i'm not the only person that she is friends with and all that, but sometimes just once I"d like things to go according to plan, just once i'd like things to go my way, is that too much to ask? it may sound selfish, but there are times when I'm tired of putting others before myself, when I just wanna think about one person... ME!!!!!!
I'm tired of having to think of others first, of having to put others feelings before my own, when is anyone gonna start thinking about ME!!?!?!?!? when's it gonna be my time to shine!?!?
i'm too depressed to continue, gotta go.
anyway, things are pretty much the same as they ever were. Grandma is still in the hospital, and I hear she's a bit depressed, so hopefully my calling her will lift her spirits a bit.
also, I got the back tires on my car replaced finally, yeah it cost me $167, but it's either that or risk having a blowout while I'm out on the road, and quite frankly , my fucking car already broke down on me once before when the fucking fan belt broke. don't need any of that extra crap quite frankly.
let's see, Friday night Rocky went off without a hitch as usual, except Pam and I didn't get to sit in the front like we usually do. Rae Rae was there, but we didn't get to hang out on the weekend, which I think is a disgrace, I mean she's telling me all about how she had been planning to do such and such with her friend for a while, which is all well and good, but as it stands she's always bloody working and it could be forever and a day before another opportunity presents itself for her to hang out with Pam and myself, and even then she'll probably pull another friend out of the ether to hang out with before she'll hang out with me.
i don't mean to sound bitter, i get that i'm not the only person that she is friends with and all that, but sometimes just once I"d like things to go according to plan, just once i'd like things to go my way, is that too much to ask? it may sound selfish, but there are times when I'm tired of putting others before myself, when I just wanna think about one person... ME!!!!!!
I'm tired of having to think of others first, of having to put others feelings before my own, when is anyone gonna start thinking about ME!!?!?!?!? when's it gonna be my time to shine!?!?
i'm too depressed to continue, gotta go.