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[bobbyinfest]

wow, its been a really long time since i've last updated. and i never really thought id come back to you, mr. Live journal. but here i am. typing away. hoping people will read this. my inspiration for coming back is really strange. i was looking for my nirvana video today in my garage. and came across a box that i never go around to unpacking. full of all sorts of goodies. year books, pictures, shirts i havent worn in years. and a video (not the nirvana tape) A Wooden Heart Never Bleeds. i thought fuck it, and i watched the thing back to front. saw some really interesting performances of No Visible Trauma, Moving Still and One in the Same. and some people on there that i havent seen in awhile. such highlights as chuck, john-patrick, shea, and mike. also some people i miss dearly and wish i could figure out what the hell is going on in our lives thats making things so damn difficult. im sure we all have our reasons for things being the way they are. and i know im at fault for alot of them. but i dont have the words to make anyone believe me, or sometimes my actions are speaking a little louder than they should. watching all of us haning out at insomnia, and the oven. and even our rarest occasion all of us drunk or on drugs at some weird firehouse...i dont know what im trying to get at here but i want all of you to know i really do miss you. dennis thanks for the tape...its made me fucking miss a whole lot of things.
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I really dont want things the way they are.
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i hope i can help change it.