so...
... i found out recently that my mother and my step-father are having marital troubles. well, i guess that this is no real news, seeing as how he is a bum and she is a saint to put up with him this long. the real news is that they are going to split up. its only a matter of time. the only thing keeping my mother from throwing his worthless ass out on the street is my kid brother, connor.
you know, i had always envisioned receiving this news with true heartfelt joy. i really don't like that man. he doesn't treat my family how they deserve to be treated, and he has many a time gone to great lengths to push me out of my mother's house. in other words, we don't get along.
the problem is, i'm not ecstatic. every time i think about it, i try to focus on how he's not good enough for my mom, how he treats me like shit, and how my sister is often afraid of him. but all i can think of are things like how hard this has to be for my mother, how he wasn't always this much of a jackass, and how something good did come out of the relationship, namely connor.
it has occurred to me that he is probably reading this, due to the fact that he has been monitoring my internet activities as of late to try to find more things that he can use against me to my mother. so, frank, if you are reading, this paragraph is for you. i know that in that last paragraph, it sounded like i was softening up about you. this is not the case. the day that you can support yourself, much less help support my mother, financially, emotionally, or spiritually, will be the day that i respect you.
and i know that there was only to be one paragraph to you, but i want this to stick out. i've finally figured out that you have been trying to replace my father for all these years. i want to tell you that you've failed. you are not, and will never be, half the man my father is. yes, my father is a flawed man, but he is a man. you are not.
there. i'm done talking to him.
anyway, i guess i'm just kind of lost. i don't know how i should feel, or how i do. i think that if i could figure out how i do feel, i would know where to go from there.
man, i just reread that post. bitch, bitch, bitch. i'm sorry guys.
thanks for listening
you know, i had always envisioned receiving this news with true heartfelt joy. i really don't like that man. he doesn't treat my family how they deserve to be treated, and he has many a time gone to great lengths to push me out of my mother's house. in other words, we don't get along.
the problem is, i'm not ecstatic. every time i think about it, i try to focus on how he's not good enough for my mom, how he treats me like shit, and how my sister is often afraid of him. but all i can think of are things like how hard this has to be for my mother, how he wasn't always this much of a jackass, and how something good did come out of the relationship, namely connor.
it has occurred to me that he is probably reading this, due to the fact that he has been monitoring my internet activities as of late to try to find more things that he can use against me to my mother. so, frank, if you are reading, this paragraph is for you. i know that in that last paragraph, it sounded like i was softening up about you. this is not the case. the day that you can support yourself, much less help support my mother, financially, emotionally, or spiritually, will be the day that i respect you.
and i know that there was only to be one paragraph to you, but i want this to stick out. i've finally figured out that you have been trying to replace my father for all these years. i want to tell you that you've failed. you are not, and will never be, half the man my father is. yes, my father is a flawed man, but he is a man. you are not.
there. i'm done talking to him.
anyway, i guess i'm just kind of lost. i don't know how i should feel, or how i do. i think that if i could figure out how i do feel, i would know where to go from there.
man, i just reread that post. bitch, bitch, bitch. i'm sorry guys.
thanks for listening